your not crazy. You have been worrying about hearing something so your mind is on that thought. Its hard to clear your head when your so anxious but you need to relax and remember that thoughts are not always based on reality. What started this fear? And also ask yourself this was this kind of thing even on your mind before this fear? I have went through this exact same obsession and i am ok now. My biggest advice is to stay away from googling any of the symptoms of schizophrenia it really makes it worse. And im here if you need to talk. By the way we r close 2 the same age im a 20 year old female.

Calm down. First, you know good and well that you aren't going to hurt anyone. You don't need a psych ward. You just need to remember that OCD is just a faulty alarm system in your brain that is trying to get you to pay attention. Remind yourself that you are OK and the alarm system is just going off a little too often. If you have a therapist, talk to him/her and try to get some help. ((Hugs))

Thank you so much both of you for your replies. I really appreciate it. :] Im trying to change the way i think, but its sooo hard,..

Breathing slowly and deeply in through your nose all the way down into your belly, hold, slowly exhale through your mouth until completely empyh of air. Repeat x 5 every time you feel stressed.

Also, you are the master of your own mind, no one else is. When obsessive thoughts intrude, breathing exercises and then refocus on a peacefu,l beautiful place you envision with your eyes closed, keep it there, feel the beauty and calm of your place, see it, feel it.

Good luck and hugs. OCD can be difficult but can be managed if you are willing to learn the methods offered by those who go before you and any good counsellor or help-line.

I find that my ocd gets worse when I am stressed so also try and reduce the stressors in your life. Take some more time to relax and don't stress yourself out so much. Thoughts are just thoughts not you.

Great advice guys! Morning, like everyone said, you are not crazy. This type of thinking is common with anxiety. When anxious, our minds will try to latch on to a cause to extinguish the anxiety. So, in my case, my anxiety was originally triggered during childhood. I grew up in a highly stressful family with lots of verbal abuse and instability. I was not getting the love I needed from my mother so I turned to less healthy things to receive this feeling. Well, as we know, our fixes arent always the best. Being raised catholic added an extra amount of guilt and shame which caused anxiety and depression, thus causing ocd. I now am a born again Christian, not born again religion, if you know what I mean. Religion cannot bring peace nor salvation; all it can bring is law and condemnation. being born again through Jesus Christ will bring freedom and redemption, and this is where I was lead.
I can completely relate to you distress, I struggled with this for years. I encourage you that there is hope and freedom. You are loved and have a purpose in this life. Dont beleive the lies; I encourage you to seek out God and What CHrist has to offer. I was sceptical, but now I know He is real and what He has done for me no Psych doctor could have accomplished.
Hang in there, there is hope. You are not crazy; you are just believing a lie.

Morning sadness,

If you live near St Louis, their is a TOP OCD shrink named C Alec Pollard who has worked with 100's of OCDers for many years now,,,,he also has a OCD clinic with other shrinks,,,,,,google his name and the name of his place will come up if you are interested,,,,,

There is a HUGE difference between having thoughts and hearing voices,,,,,,,the unwanted and intense thoughts are OCD, if one hears voices from poeple that are not there or when alone, thnat might be schizophrenia,,,,,,I am betting you are just a typical OCDer,,,,,

Having unwanted thoughts about killing your family is actually a quite common symptom of OCD,,,,,for example, many new mothers with OCD have terrible and unwanted thoughts about killing their babies,,,,,

When I was just about your age, I lived at home for the last time and one night had these terrible thoughts about killing my parents,,,,,it scared me so much, I asked or prayed to God to make sure i did not,,,,I have thought soooooooooooooo many harmful thoughts about people that I fear those thoughts will come true, not that I will act on them,,,,,,so I have to "unthink" them or think a "good" thjought to replace them,,,,,,,very tirering and meaningless,,,,,

Hope you find a good OCD shrink to help you,,,,meds and ERP are still the 1-2 punch to fight OCD! If you truely have OCD, you will NEVER act on those thoughts,,,,,,

Are you hearing voices telling or commanding you to do harm or are they thoughts? There is a big difference. But it sounds like from what you have written that they are just thoughts. Several years back I had thoughts of harming my family as well. At the time I did not know I had OCD, and thought I was going crazy to the point I had barricaded myself in my room. Once I learned of my diagnosis I entered treatment in the form of CBT which literally saved my life. Are you in treatment currently?

When my thoughts get real bad, i go and take a nap for about a hour. Try to relax and know that you are not crazy. OCD is a terribble afflication i have horriffying thoughts-thats the nature of the disease, i'm constantely battling my thoughts, Hang on there my new friend, medicine can help some but unfortunantely i think its a life long disease, and ask Jesus to forgive you of your sins and save you,and he will never leave you or forsake you. When i am weak, then I am strong, because Jesus lives in me and he is my, comforter, God bless, mike