I think about it 24/7 and I tell my shrink about it....she can usually tell or myself when I need to be in a safe place.....kept myself out of the hospital nearly 7 years....we usually up the meds....or down that one....it's a balancing act. Sometimes, because my head is always showing me ways to kill myself or telling to do it all the time......I get really scared that maybe I"m suppose to be dead......so far I keep fighting the terrible thoughts and bully inside my head......my disorders will not win.....keep fighting...take care.

Hi everyone im brewie. I wanted to say a big hi and hello to everyone :)
If anyone needs to talk please let me know.
I have lived with ocd for 25 years now, and there is alot i can help with
from depression, suicidal thoughts, anxiety, panic attacks, hypocondriac, fear, doubts, worry, plaguing thoughts, bad twisted thoughts, fear, fear fear. Notice how fear is up here alot, and if you look really close fear is in every word i discribed.
You cant live with a disorder for this long and not figure a few things out.

I know how scared some of you might feel. Please dont be afraid.
I would like to try and help if i can for you to understand what your ocd is doing to you.
ocd is different for everyone. It feeds off of your own unique personality. The key is to figure out what your ocd does to you. And then you can deal with it.
So please if anyone needs to talk, i would love to help
Brewie