It takes time for the drug to start working. I have had and still do somewhat
have OCD worry about the future. Practicing mindfulness has helped me.
Also knowing that I can handle life. I don't want anything difficult to happen. But I believe I can cope if it does. Keep your mind busy as much as you can
on what is happening right now today.

Thank you Tired. I've tried meditation so I guess I can keep trying. Currently I have five things that bother me. There's one that will eventually end, but not for six months. Sorry to be vague. Two are regrets, not going anywhere. One is complicated, not sure when it will end. Then one is about the future. It's something specific and I'd rather not explain, but generally speaking I feel the world is slowly turning worse, and what will things be like for my child 20 years from now. I think about her life, how it might turn out in the midst of chaos. I'm just so tired of it. Constant during the day and it wakes me up at night. You have a good screen name, tired sums it up.

Prozac will take a few weeks, closer to a month, to really see the positive effects from it.

Other good OCD medications are Zoloft and Luvox (according to my psychiatrist). Are you seeing a psychiatrist? Going to therapy?

I have OCD, too. I know it's hard. Try your best to live in the moment. Just think about today. None of us knows what the future will be like. We can only hope for the best... and do our best.

Exercise helps with anxiety. Even taking walks outside helps a lot. Maybe try going outside more during the day. Be around nature, it is calming.

Best wishes.

I feel like Prozac may have been a mistake. I have insomnia already, which has only been made worse with all this crap I'm going though. But it seems it's a common side effect of Prozac. Just switched it to morning dosage so we'll see I guess.
I do see a therapist. There's a psychiatrist in the same location, but they scheduled me so many months out it was absurd. So I saw my family Dr who prescribed the Prozac. I don't know, sleep issues have been there for many years and probably made me the messed up person that got me into this situation.

Yes I definitely need to exercise more. It sucks because I used to a lot. Lift weights, run, bike, all sorts of things. Now I think I've done two workouts in the past 3 months. Have gone for a few walks, not enough though.

I'll continue to try. Living in the moment is so difficult though. Every time I sort of feel ok it's like my brain just has to remind me of all the things I OCD about.

See if your doctor will prescribe a sleep aid. Try to stick it out with Prozac. I have OCD. I get real bad when my nurse practitioner messes with my meds. I am on Sertraline (generic for Zoloft) and Risperidone (generic for Risperdal). I cannot do without this combo. Another thing that I have been able to do is to realize that my intrusive thoughts are just my OCD. Then I can move on from the thought. Keep venting here.

Thanks greeneyes, they did prescribe trazodone for sleep. Initially seemed like not helpful but I think it's starting to work now.
So I have different thoughts. Self harm doesn't even bother me anymore. Just a sad reality of how my brain works. Regret is bad. Wanting to change things is painful. I feel like thoughts for the future are the worst. Like I can't concentrate on trying to mend things, I keep thinking it's all for nothing because the future is so bad nothing matters. I'd rather not say specifically the things that worry me. Maybe I'm going crazy on that but I feel like I'm right. I do hope it changes.

Anona, I was wondering if you have tried getting back into doing some exercise?

Even walking, every other day, can really help with anxiety, depression.... it also raises self esteem.

I understand your pain. I ruminate over things I have said and done from today to my childhood. I really hate it amongst other things.

Sorry to state the obvious. When you're in a good mood, recognize that the past cannot be changed, we can only look to the future. Personally, I've found a suggestions book good, write down what I did, why it was wrong or could be improved (note bad luck may indicate you didn't make a mistake), prepare some recommendations for future conduct, and go forward.

Recognize that the ruminating does not help. Imagine if you had a lawyer charging 350 per hour. He says I just spent 3 hours looking over your case realizing that I should have say, served interrogatories on issue A earlier. So what are we going to do the client asked, don't know right now, but you owe me a thousand dollars for worrying and ruminating.

Recognizing that the worrying is not productive is the first step. Playing in a Super Bowl, the coach usually structures the practices the same way as in the regular season, because added pressure does not help. Understanding that anxiety is not helping, that worrying does not make things better is the first step.