I'm so sorry. Ive been with my husband since I was 17. I'm a longtime member here but don't stop by often, for some reason I felt like I needed to check in. Now I know why. If you need anything please let me know, I am so sorry for your loss. -Jen

So very sorry for your loss. Sounds like a wonderful life together. As long as you keep cherishing the memories, he will always be with you.

I'm sorry for your loss. It would have been very difficult to nurse your husband & watch him die as well. As well as your lour loss & this difficult time it is not surprising that your ms is playing up big time. Often happens after a stressful period of time.
Everyone saying to spend time with your family is their natural way of trying to help you.
Of course you miss your husband in so many ways & want him back to. That is a natural reaction.
There is nothing I can say to that except you have my sympathy & condolences.
Don't bury yourself away apart from your family, on the other hand do give yourself time to yourself to grieve by yourself & with them to. Remember all the good times too.
Take care of yourself & vent when you need to.

I am so sorry for your loss. I have a husband that is very ill and is now homebound and has nurses coming in .... its so not easy what you went threw as a caregiver and now with the loss you feel. 38 yrs is a long time.... 26 for my husband and myself..... the grieving process is very normal and yes you can hang on to the good memories and yet give yourself permission to continue making new memories with your children and grandchildren.... he will always be with you in your heart. I wish i could say something to take the pain from you but no one can.... just know that there are others our here that are with you and thinking about you at this very difficult time. I will be sure to say a prayer for peace for your family tonight.

I am VERY SORRY for your loss.
My heart goes out to you. I will keep you in my thoughts & prayers.
Make sure you keep with your family & friends they will help you through this very tough time.
Make sure you take care of yourself. MS can act up when we are going through a stressful time.
We are all here for you.
Sending you warm hugs and lots of love

I am so sorry for your loss. I think the pain is so fresh that you'll need some time to mourn and get ticked off. Then maybe you can get to a place where you can see your hubby in your kids and grandkids. When they give you a hug you can feel a little of him in the hug.

I am sorry you lost a great love. If you want to cry/vent /rant feel free to do so.
Big Bear Hugs to you.

I know there are no words that can really help you through such a difficult time, but please know that I'm sending you lots of love and positive energy in hopes that it helps you just a little.

(((hugs)))

I am so sorry for your loss. Words cannot begin to express what you are feeling. My father in law has been staying with us since we lost my mother-in-law 2 years ago. It has been very difficult for him. He has said that being around family has been a Godsend. Take care of yourself and if you are able spend some time with your family.

I am so sorry for your loss! I too have been married for 38 years. I don't know what I would do with out him. Please know every one here is praying for you, sending you hugs and good wishes.

Stay in touch with family, but also give your self "me" time.

{{HUGS}}

Marilyn

I am so sorry. My heart breaks for you. It is a different thing, however my dad passed when he was 49. The loss was huge for me, however different cause it wasn't a spouse. My experience with his death taught me that time doesn't make the loss feel better. What time did do was lessen the days I would be sad. The first time I laughed after he died I felt guilty for finding joy. But that is what they would want. So it has been20 years and somedays I miss him and don't feel sad. Others I just miss him, and then there are days I cry like he died yesterday. Time just allows more joy and life to settle in between the sad parts. Honor yourself and cry when you feel like it and honor your husbands memory and live life as full as you can. We are here for you if you need us. Lots of hugs. Kelly

I too am sorry for your loss. I lost my wife to breast cancer nine years ago and I still miss her every day. When she left I thought her passing was the worst thing that could happen. And then she stayed gone. There were no grief support groups near me but I found a website called Widownet that helped during the early stages of my grief, You'll likely find folks who are understanding and supportive there.
Be Strong & Remember to Breathe.

I'm so very sorry for your loss. I will keep you in my prayers. With the help of loved ones and this board you can get through this. My heart breaks for you dear. Much love and hugs.

I'm so sorry for your loss. Wishing you peace to bring comfort, courage to face the days ahead, and loving memories to forever hold in your heart.

So sorry for your lost. It breaks my heart to hear. I send you healing thought and lots of prayer.

Thank you all for your thoughts and prayers, it is so good to contact with my MS buddies. I have spent quite a bit of time at our house the last two days.....trying to figure out if I will be able to go home and live or if I need to sell and move. Everything here is him, he loved this house, we had it built in 1986 and he has planted every tree, bush and flower and also the acre of grass. Thanks again everyone!!! Kaye