That's how I feel like I don't get a choice like I don't deserve one.. I feel like abuse is all I'm good and here for .. My dad, my sister my cousin my "boy friend" have sexual abused me and when I told my cousin to leave me alone he says it's, over when he says so ... I have no choice I live to serve at least that's how I feel :-/

The most difficult thing in this walk is not being able to stop on-going abuse. I wish I could tell you how to walk away. I know the sense of being trapped. Do you have a therapist? Are you seeing someone? I can't imagine doing this without mine.

I tried to accept friend request but it keeps loading without completing. As soon as it lets me, I'll finish it. I've tried 20-30 times today. :-(

I have just my school therapist but she sent us away to the respid so we no trust her... So there's no communication and we looks at her like she stupid because she knows nothing about being a multiple :-/

what kind of respid? I got sent to a respite once and it was okay, though only a few days.

awww.. both of you, brainwashed into thinking that's it for you. That's NOT it, darlins. I know in some families there is one that is IT, and that was my sister, n at first I believed it, but then it was God that told me and showed me that that was NOT right and that she was his child and precious, n after that I tried to protect her. n when we got old enough we left

Hi Hopeless,
I do not know the situation in the USA, in france, one can phone a number or go to a center or the police to report sexual abuse.
It is a crime and these people, especially your father and cousin have to be stopped in order to protect you and other potential victims.otherwise, incest will carry on in your family endlessly repeating itself from generation to generation.
You are the victim and your relatives the abusers;You are not to blame and you are not responsible for your parents;
You deserve a good therapist who understandsDID, can help you protect yourself, achieve your studies in which a lot of concentration is needed and proceed with your own life and building your own sane family.

That's the thing sexual abuse does run gene:ration to generation my mom was... My older sister was... And me I just want to be able to say I was and not still in fear and fighting not to be by my cousin :( if I go to the police I will be disowned ... Or worst...

Xa1nbow: it was a mental health one and only a couple if days too

yes, many things go from generation to generation. in my family too. We learn, we do what we learned, and pass it on. It takes a lot of effort to break out of it. I was disowned, and that's okay, better that way sometimes. I didn't get support from 'authorities', but I got a kind of support from a clinic with a social worker.

got you and am there for you always and Eric he is pretty strong he is with you too,, i hope so much you can get out some how some way tell someone yell scream go to someone but get out ,,, no matter what the deal is,,,, you are warrior now and must do what you must,, yes I want to be out of my fifty eight year old body , i know sounds corny I look at my youthful years as a teacher and get sad for losses but you know I forget to see the good stuff,,,, can you imagine a really warm white light surrounding , you ,, well I am sending light and love and healing thoughts to you,, I wish I could do something more always here for you teacher