I am sorry. I had a MC last year Oct the 1st and I was 7wks and 4 days. Then a year later when I was doing better, my hubby was in the ICU with high blood sugar, 830, a staff infection and pneumina. A week after he got home i went and got a home test and it said i was pregnant. We where both in shock but happy at the same time. I went for an ultrasound a few weeks later and they couldnt find anything but the sac was reading 5 weeks 4 days, and they couldnt see much since they did an outside ultrasound. So I went back two weeks later and they still couldnt find a heartbeat but the sac was reading 7 wk 4 days. So i was staying positive about everything, it was on a friday. The following thursday my mother had to call 911 for me bc i lost the felling my arms and face and mouth and couldnt speak, they thought i was having a stork. I was rushed to the ER and they didn a vaginal ultraound and a few hours later the ER doctor came in and told me that I was having a miscarriage, that there wasnt a heartbeat. I looked at my hubby and just started crying and asking the doctor why. I just lost a baby last year. The look on the doctors face was like he felt like crap for having to come and tell me the news. The following monday i was back in te ER again for my left arm staying numb all day long. They did a CT scan and another vaginal ultrasound. I had to wait for the doctor to come and tell me what was going on once again bc the tech wouldnt tell me anything or turn the screen so that i could see what was on the screen. The doctor came in and told me that i was having a MC and that there was no heartbeat and thats all that she would tell me.
Last week i went and saw an OBGYN and they didnt another vaginal ultrasound in the office and this time the tech turned the screen so that i could see what she was seeing. I saw our lil baby. There was no heart beat and she even started crying and asked if i wanted a pic and i said yes please. The doctor wouldnt give me a picture and wouldnt let me ask anything so i will not be back to that office. But the next day, 8 days ago, i was at home and i was cramping badly and in tears from the pain. i went outside toget some air and i had a gush of fluid and i ran back inside the house to the bathroom. While i was in there cleaning up and changing clothes, i felt something and i got up and i passed our baby, that we a few days later named Skyler. the bleeding stopped a few days later. I go to the doctor again tuesday but to a different OBGYN and see what they say i need to do and what i can do. My hubby and I talked and we are not going to try again. We have two boys, 8 and 2 years old and we have two angels in heaven, Angel and Skyler. We have our family and i guess this is gods way to say that we need to stop or its my body saying that there is something wrong with my body and that i dont need to try again and to stop.
Its just been hard on me and i am so depressed with everything and dont feel myself at all. I dont know what to do anymore or what i need to do. I am trying to be strong for my boys bc i know that they need me. But i am just lost and dont know what is going to happen or what i need to do to get better and so that my family will make it through this. Last year my hubby and I almost broke up and I dont want that to happen. we have been together for 4 years now and engaged almost 2 years now.