So I have recently starting going to AA meetings, but since I quit I started smoking more. I love smoking. I think it is great. It's not like I use it to hide or forget about anything. I enjoy smoking and love how it makes me feel. I understand why my therapist is concerned, because I am replacing alcohol with pot, but I feel completely different when I smoke. When I drink I become a different person. When I smoke I am the same person, I'm happy and feel amazing. I don't see what the big deal is? I guess I'm just not ready to quit. This is going to be the first holidays that I am sober so I was looking forward to smoking rather than drinking. My therapist says pot is a gateway drug, but is it? I don't think about drinking when I smoke and I sure as hell don't want to do any other drugs. Am I being dramatic or is this really a problem? I smoke about a joint a day. Sometimes I smoke one in the afternoon and one at night. Obviously I want to quit before I go back to school, but is it so wrong to just enjoy these last couple of months? My therapist gave me a worksheet to complete, and it has a bunch of questions to answer. It's about marijuana addiction. I kind of laughed when I read it. I guess I'm not used to the idea of pot as an addiction. I was never really a big smoker in the past, just used it socially. Idk, I don't want to make an excuses. I am just not ready to quit yet. How did you guys do it?
I'e been stuck in a loop of anxiety and depression for a few years now. I can't seem to get out of it because I have a huge avoidance issue. I know I need to do certain things to pull myself out of this hole, but I have so much anxiety when I think about facing the issues that I need to deal with. The past several days, I've had suicidal feelings. Can anyone relate?
I never realized how codependant I was untill my girlfriend was so gracious to let me know how much she does not want to be with me. It breaks my heart, but I understand that I can live without her. Is it such a problem to not want to live without someone? I thought I could not live without her, is that codependant? I just love her and want her in my life, but I also understand that we were...