I’ve met someone, we have connected on a level that I have never experienced before!  I’ve often lofted from relationship to relationship, often connecting, but not like this.  This is so real, have I been asleep the whole time, have I only now begun to wake up to this reality?  

This was an email/blog that my ex-wife sent me, later recanting that it was a blog that was meant to be sent out to a group of friends.  As I read her statement, I thought, how nice, she cheated on me, with multiple partners and after so many years, she found her one.  In a previous post I discussed Ambiguous Loss, a journey that is long and lonely.  I remember, the second year after our divorce, I got tired of the fear, the pain, the anger that comes along with a broken heart.  However, I told myself that I would need to let go to feel better, (Something that took me a while). 

Yet, that proclamation allowed for protection, whenever she talked about details about the affairs I was not troubled by them, I was glad to be released from her flaky nature.  We have two daughters, so we cross paths at family events and logistics. Now, in the middle of my journey of Ambiguous Loss, she has found her “One”?  While I choose to look at this as an opportunity to develop/enhance my processing skills.  I first must admit that it hurt to hear/read that she found her “One”.  Next, I will process both of these and see where I go next.