Everything will be alright. It just feels really hard right now. There are more people that love you and care than you realize. Everyone is just wrapped up in their own struggles as well; probably also wondering if anyone knows that they are suffering. You did reach out. By posting this. I often feel the same. But they care, they do. Sometimes in our darkest moment, it can be helpful to tell someone else that we care and that will open up more than we expect.

I'm just wondering if you have low self esteem and maybe a bit of depression too?
You probably dont reach out and let pple know how bad your feeling because when a person feels of little value they cant see why anyone would care.
You cover how your really feeling and put on a front for the outside world, some pple are so good at it no one has a clue.
The pple i work with a couple days a week would have no idea of the real me and my mental health because i'm smiley smiley while i'm there.
On here you can be honest and open and i hope you share how your feeling because a lot of pple will understand and give you some comfort.

So true. I am always 'on' at work and no one has no idea that I can close my house door on a Friday afternoon and not open it till a Monday morning. I love my life and my boys who give me real reason to smile but I don't have many friends, like real friends I can call on or get together with.

I was just wondering if you go down to the school to pick your kids up, i dont know how old your kids are, but what if you invited kids over for tea, meet other mums, get talking to them that way?
Is there anyone at work you could be friends with?
Go out at weekends with kids and meet other mums?
Do the kids go to any clubs/activities? Meet pple there?

I understand you. I feel like staying in my room alone is the only way I should live. I walk around and smile and everyone thinks I'm totally happy and fine. In reality, I sit in my bedroom and wait for someone to notice or knock on the door. No one ever comes...