I live on my own now after a heartbreaking breakup with my partner and I feel extremely lonely and to add to the problems, my family is going though some hard times where some family members are not even speaking to each other, which makes me feel even lonelier not having any family stability. I have never felt lonely before, never knew how terrifying solitude is till now. I am trying not let myself fall into depression as I find myself less motivated each day and all I want to do is to stay in bed watching shows while time just passes by.
I dont feel alive. I feel like to one cares about me. I feel like such a loner. A social loser.
How do you change your solitude without forcing people to be there for you and love you?
When I get anxious I tend to catastrophize. I mean like crazy unreasonable " what ifs". I think I watch too many movies lol. I have to laugh sometimes to diffuse the anxiety of the thoughts which come from anxiety. So it is like a vicious circle. I don't know if I am making sense! I know the worry is unrealistic and unfounded but find it disturbing to have the thoughts. Ugh!
I get anxiety about the cleanliness and safety of my food. I was at a well known sandwich chain today and noticed a fly in there. It landed on my bread, so I told the guy, and had him get me a new bread. But. I started thinking about it later. The fly could have landed on the cooked meats, lettuce, tomatoes, etc, since everything is just out in the open. Fly was still flying around in the...