I have been extremely isolated from others for an amount of time that is so long that it makes me highly uncomfortable to let anyone I might make a friend of in the off-line world know about it. It's absolutely bizarre. I have finally started trying to change the situation in the last couple years, but there has been very little improvement. I somehow can't put myself out to people I don't know, and I have virtually no one I can go out with that might be able to help me approach new people. I have been trying for a few weeks to find local support groups for people dealing with depression, but I am finding almost none, and very few people participating in them. I was speaking with a therapist last year, and she asked me about what sorts of things I have in my life that bring me happiness, what might I direct myself toward when I am feeling discouraged. The answer came to me almost immediately; nothing. I am alone, and it is so terribly painful to me. I am absolutely not a loner, I hate that my life is the way it is, as regards this. That is why nothing I engage in brings me happiness, I don't do anything in the company of someone who cares for me. I could be doing the most enjoyable thing there could be to me, but if I am without companionship, what is the value of that? That is how I feel about life, my approach to life. To me, the way I have lived is extremely unhealthy, and it hurts, more than I could possibly say.  At that point, I had no friends at all. Now I have one casual one, who doesn't know about my freakish existence. Two perhaps, I met someone locally, but through an on-line group, in December, that I confided this bizarre thing in; unfortunately, aside from being very supportive initially, she quite rarely reaches out to me, and I don't want to burden her as we don't know each other that well. I live in Oklahoma. Is there anyone who might like to talk?