Loneliness Support Group
Loneliness is an emotional state in which a person experiences a powerful feeling of emptiness and isolation. Loneliness is more than the feeling of wanting company or wanting to do something with another person. Loneliness is a feeling of being cut off, disconnected and alienated from other people. The lonely person may find it difficult or even impossible to have any...


the nest your parents have provided may need to be left for you to grow....
It takes work to find out exactly what things you would most enjoy. I once read that one way to do that was to flip through a stack of old magazines and tear out every photo that/idea the inspires you.
You can do the same thing on the internet. Just copy and paste - also if you're on Pinterest, you can see which activities, crafts, etc you're drawn to. Walking and running gets you outside,but you may already be spending a lot of time outside.
Hobbies, for some, start out as just something to fill time, a distraction, but if you find what's right for you, it can be something you spend a lot of time planning, enjoying.
A really good book about a teenaged boy "The Spectacular Now" by Tim Tharp. Some lol stuff.
Have you told your parents about your desire to leave the farm? If so, are they supportive but simply don't have the money to send you to college or put you up in an apartment in the city while you search for gainful employment because they're poor? Can you apply for and get financial aid (a grant preferrably) to go to college? Or do they simply need your help there because they can't run the farm all by themselves? Farming is a tough business. One good drought, the crops die and your family is financially decimated.
This definitely sounds like a domestic family issue. We outsiders don't know the whole situation.