I do not have any friends or family. I only have one husband of 14 years who treats me like his mother. I am in a sexless marriage. I only have our two cats who are my children/furbabies. I never had human children, since my husband never paid me any attention. I am 54 years now, and practically at the point of tears from devastating loneliness. I do not know where to go. I belonged to a church, but they did not understand me in church. I had tried to be open in bible study and speak truthfully to the people there, and they just turned against me, and started a church fight until I left their church. I honestly do not know where or with whom I belong. It seems like I do not fit in anywhere. I had a good government job, and they turned everything upside down in my job where I was doing my work and succeeding, and all of a sudden it turned into a crazy fight to get me out. I don't even know what happened it all happened so fast. I tried to meet co-workers for lunch, and tried to behave sociable with others. It didn't work. They were haters and did not want to be friends with me. I do not know where to turn if this support group does not work out. I sincerely hope that something works. They say, "When God closes a door, he opens a window." Only I have not yet found that open window.