because you're more comfortable around us than those people

Nope you're not strange as far as from what I've read other people have said. .I had dinner with my children, we all met at my youngest son's house. It was nice, but I was the oldest one there, I always am the oldest nowadays. I told my daughter, I feel like an idiot around young people like that. She said we don't see you that way. I get by making light of my own shortcomings, which are many. Ah I'm glad it's over with too. Take a breath and enjoy the peace and quiet. I going to take a nap this afternoon then when I wake up, I'm going to go to bed.

you are both right. sara I am going to sneek in a nap soon, I have been invited to my bosses house for an after Christmas get together. I like her and there will be someone there I really like and haven't seen in awhile but I dread going. I am not a great talker. I would love to ignore everything today and just rest..

I think it's very nice that u were invited to your bosses house for dinner. It's very good to get out. I'm sure u will do very well to me u are really nice and present yourself very well but I do understand the need to be alone and not want to deal with it but it's good u r going to get out and do that. I hope it goes well for u and u have a nice time. My prayers r with u that u will have a nice time at the dinner. I'm glad your dinner is finally over and now u can relax and not have to deal with that anymore. It's very nice how your brother and brother in law helped u with the dinner. I'm not sure why your sister can't help out and why she can't host these holiday parties anymore when she has a bigger place then u. It doesn't seem fair. U have enough on your plate and have gone through a lot with your husband passing away and never really finding anyone else to be with because u r going through a lot. I would think your sister would understand and know that she should be the one to do this if she can as u don't need this. I see u really working hard and going through stress with your knee operation, recovering, what u r going through and now bills u have to deal with but wanting to be there for your parents which is very kind, caring and thoughtful of u. I'm very sorry your son David is not communicating with u regarding staying over until Sunday. It's very nice of u to have him and his girlfriend stay over. I hope u will have some peace. I'm glad your knee is feeling better. That's really good news. I hope dinner at your boss's home goes well for u. Hugs and love.

No you are not strange. It is in an introvert's nature to need a break from people.

I can totally relate. If I am in a group of people for too long, I feel like I'm going to climb the walls. I've got to get away and be alone for a while.

That's cool that your boss invited you over. I'm sure you'll have a great time!

hugs your right yup it is over....well done we all made it thru to other side...some happy it is over and then like me glad I got to go thru it...had nice time with my family and enjoyed tonight as we had a meetup tonight to have dinner and tour county park light display over 1 million lights....it was small but fun....we took two cars thru the park...I paid for both cars as I am organizer and they all paid dues....so I jumped on paying for the cars to go thru so nobody had to pay any more....fun for me...but I did not have money for the after party when we drove to starbucks...I just sat as they all drank their coffees...we talked and closed the place down...

I had a nice time at the get together yesterday, but my anorexia was in high gear and I didn't eat anything but carrots. luckily everyone there nows my situation but I still feel I was very rude not eating any of the food, though no one cared. I am so happy that I made the decision to transfer to barbs store, I heard more horror stories from a fellow co worker about how things have been there. I wont have to deal with that crap anymore. I am supposed to go to my b/f's souse tonight for another get together and I have to say I am so peopled out, I don't want to have to talk or think of what to say anymore, it has all been to much for me. I am exhausted today, I think my depression is pecking through. I have to go, even for just a short while, but I am going later then the scheduled time, I will want a nap and I am going to have one. it is so weird, I climb the walls and feel so lonely when there is nothing going on or if there is I don't usually go, but these events, Christmas, yesterday and today I have no choice and I am overwhelmed. one would think I would be happy that people want to see me, but I have had enough, I want to isolate again for a bit. it is hard with the staying here, david is on the couch sleeping and my whole morning routine is off. laura is in the spare room, it only has a tiny twin bed, darn it. cant watch the news and god forbid turn on a light. this is going to sound awful and forgive me but I just have to say it. my gift from david and laura was a hardcover book and a votive holder, no card. I like the book and the candle holder is very nice, but I feel there wasn't much thought put into it and I have to say, I thought I should of gotten a card, they mean more to me then a gift. and he is out of the woods with helping me financially. I have good news about the bills, my physical therapy and I believe hospital stay have been all covered with my insurance, yeah!!!!! have a good day everyone, try and enjoy the weekend and do something fun for yourself.

Enjoyed your post just now, Ann.

"All peopled out" is priceless. I hope I can remember that one.
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I *did* really enjoy your post and hope I can send more when there is time.


. Caleb

NO i feel that way too. It's nice for about an hour after that I retreat off to my room or something for a bit, everyone knows that's the way I am. I don't feel antisocial because when I'm on, I'm on, I am just that way. But I am ok with it

I don't know where I got that expression, it just came out and it is so fitting! yet on the other hand when it all dies down after awhile you wonder what is with you and your life. new years eve is coming very soon and it is one of the hardest times for me, I get very down and think of all that I did wrong and how I should of been and why I am the way I am still at age 57. I am feeling a sense of dread and anxiousness. the late afternoon and evening are the worst for me, I have to have things to do, alone or I go crazy, I dwell on all the time ahead of me before I can go to bed. I am finally allowing myself to read more and be okay with not doing anything, for the longest time if I was idle I would think to much about how I feel, how lonely I am, how fed up I am. I started the e harmony site, but when it came to describing yourself and your interests I stopped, what in the world to say? I am glad caleb I gave you something to smile about.

You are strange LOL, but you are definitely not alone, there are 7-billion others just like you.

There was just so much going on for you over the holiday, it's natural to feel overwhelmed. Even "people people" I think get overwhelmed during busy holidays.
I often wonder how I'd faire in a relationship these days...cuz I'm just not willing to put myself out constantly. The most recent guy wanting to date me was constantly having to be doing and going...I find that a little insecure actually...and a sign of being afraid to be introspective. Balance is the key.

I also get all peopled out during the holidays. . I like what gusto kitty said. I think everyone is affected by holidays and events that go along with them. Everyone just wears themselves out before the event even gets started. I mean, I look forward it, and I hate when it is over. However, my nerves stay torn up while participating. I think I fit quite naturally on the weird list. lol