Yes you are too judgmental.
Hang in there. It will happen.
There's WAY more single women out there than there is single men.
It can happen in this life.

I was listening to an Abraham Hicks video and she said, none of us gets a free pass in this life. If we can't work through our fears in this life, we will have to do it again in the next....It's why we are all here. All of the eastern spiritualities, like the Buddhists and hindu's say the same. "Lessons are repeated until learned"

I happened to think about that when you mentioned "next life"

~~~Peace~~~

I meditate. And I try to forgive. But when I go to AA and women keep treating me bad, then I'm angry again. Every day. It seems to me a lot that God is an Evil Spirit. Gnosticism.

My life could get better if I could somehow get my hands on a whole lot of money. LOL

Not sure you can understand this but if you can...it will help you because it helped me. I have a great life and I have never been happier. Watch to the end.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=8lDmVtqqzUk

~~~Peace~~~

Yessir. I just watched the whole thing. I've tried working on the Law of Attraction from time to time. I'm sure that somehow it works. I'm also sure that I've been doing stuff wrong to not work the law of attraction perfectly. I'm trying to ask this question in an open ended way: What do you think is the source of happiness? And what is the source of negativity? Didn't Buddha say that Life is Struggle? And didn't he also say that Desire, or Attachment is the source of suffering? I'm not an expert at these things. But it seems pretty clear to me that in this world, negativity happens. I've tried to use spirituality to make my life pleasant. But it just doesn't last forever. I believe that I make constant sincere attempts to forgive those who hurt me in the past. But then I still go places that I must go: AA meetings and sometimes church. Inevitably the same thing always happens. The lady I'm interested treats me like a creep, rejects me, And goes off in the sun to have sex with the assholes. I don't care how spiritual I get, that's pretty damn hard for a guy to take. I welcome your comments. Maybe you can straighten me out. Blessings.

I don't see anything wrong with me being angry at someone that treats me like crap.

Could Joe Dizpensa travel back in time? Into a Nazi Death Camp, And teach Jews to meditate? So that it wouldn't bother them when the Nazis tortured them, starved them, and forced them to work in the freezing winter? Who knows?

I want a gentle man! I don't like bullies! My timing is always off it seems. Just have not been able to tell him how I feel. I get passed by so much. Heart sick and crying all the time. I am so lonely!