There are people who can't deal with darkness, so they sever ties for their self-preservation. Most people even, I'd say.

But I for instance have an equally depressed friend from high school years, and we hang out almost every weekend. Go to the park and such, talk about our horrible online dating experiences...

Maybe it's okay to not feel "normal" again. Maybe the new normal requires different friends.

I do not have friends also. When you have problem you talk to people too much of things that people do not want to know. Once you will cure depression everyone will be back.

If you getting worse by the day that means you take wrong medication. Medication can make you much worse if you take wrong things. Doctors are not god they try things that they think should help. If it goes in wrong direction need try something else. If medication works it works pretty quickly. Some doctorssay you have to take medication for a while for it to work. That is not truth. If medication does not give some improvement within week or sooner that iswrong medication and can make condition much worse.

When they say that itis depression they give different antidepressantsin reality there is groups of antidepressants that act similarly. Lexapro is one type Mirtazepine other type. If twl types taken togather they can produce dangerous seratonine syndrom.Otherwise it is simple. Try lexapro or some other antidepresant of that group. If not helps. Than stop makebrakeand try mirtozepine. If alsonot helps than they suggest neuroleptics. Usually if you indeedneed neurolepticsthey help very fastbut iftheydo not help in coupledays and conditiongetsvery much worse need stop them immedietly and take tranqulizers or mirtozepine.If you taking now antidepresant and tranqulizers and condition is getting worse than needed neuroleptic.

Something of 3 mirtazepine, lexapro or neuroleptic should help. Preferably do not needmixthemso it would be possible to clearly see effect. If mix stuff it is hard to see what causes what.

I think people are giving good advice here, to check into your meds.

Also, friends grow tired of anyone who is consistently depressed and some will begin to avoid that person. They may read the depression as being overly negative, or as wallowing, or they tire of the person not taking advice they may be offering. They drift away in favor of friends who have something to offer as far as real conversation and activities. A relative of mine says she's not depressed, but she is, and all her friends have drifted away until there is not one of them left. She always expected the world to come to her and understand her no matter what and be sympathetic and tolerant. People just moved on toward others who had something to offer.

Just in case, you may want to give some thought to how you've been with your friends in recent months, and their reactions to what you talk about, or how you behave (are you aloof?), and whether you are a good listener that lets them feel their advice or ideas are valuable to you.

Remember, friends don't actually owe us anything, even though at times we feel that they do because we feel dependent upon their kindness and understanding. It's their prerogative to drift away, though, if they aren't getting anything out of the friendship anymore. After all, they have lives to live, too, in the best way possible 'cause life is hard and life is short.

There's an old saying that to have good friends you have to BE a good friend. So I would give some thought to your relationships, some open-minded introspection. Honing your skill at introspection is very important to sorting out depression and making a better life.

That said, I'm sorry you are feeling lonely. Loneliness is hard and it requires reaching out just when we feel the least like doing so! We want others to come to us and to understand and listen and lift us up, but friendship is challenging. I have a few really good friends and I've worked hard to also BE a good friend. For many years now I've had a lot of financial challenges and boyfriend challenges and health issues to address, and my of my day is dedicated to making a living just to keep a roof over my head, with no real upside in the 'normal' ways (weekend getaways, vacations, new clothes, restaurants, etc.) and so sometimes I get annoyed when I'm down or frustrated and one of my friends who makes more money than I do, or who has a great husband, offers what they think is great advice, but it's actually unrealistic and they don't understand my situation fully--that's a pet peeve of mine! But I forgive them and change the subject if I'm feeling misunderstood.

When I get lonely, truly lonely, I try to plan ahead and contact one of my friends and invite them to do something relaxing or fun even when I may not feel like getting out. I have to push myself, which isn't fun, but it always makes things better, I come away from spending time with one of them, feeling more positive. The last time I didn't feel like getting out of my pajamas or any of what it takes to get ready in the morning, I did it anyway because one of my friends wanted me to so with her to the local farmers' market in a tiny nearby town. Aacckk, I didn't want to do it, I just wanted to sit around and read or watch tv with the blinds pulled! I wanted to cancel, but I didn't. We enjoyed walking around that little market area buying some healthy foods and seeing all the bright colors and the smiling people on a sunny day. And we walked a few blocks exploring a little, and even went to a charity thrift sale and found some fun little cheap things to take home. And on the way home we stopped for coffee & and an appetizer to share in a pretty place. I dropped her at home and then the rest of my day I felt empowered and positive.

It's important to be a friend to your friends. When they want to do something, put some effort out to help them be happy, too. My friend had really wanted to go to that farmers market and it would not have been kind of me to cancel on her. Sometimes pushing yourself reinforces your relationship. This friend came up to me at my desk at work the other day and leaned over and gave me a little hug and said "I'm so glad we're friends'. That would not happen if I did not meet her halfway.

I am hoping for the best for you.

I don't yet know your background or much about you, so I hope I don't sound unrealistic. I am just trying to give you some ideas to ponder. Some may not apply to you, some may.

I've always been a bit of a loner. I never saw things the way "regular" people see things. It was "neat" when I was younger, as people thought I was cool and I had a lot of friends then. Now that I am older people think I am just plain weird. Yes I lost all my friends also; it's very lonely, I do keep busy, though to fend of depression. I have people in my life, but not many and the few that area I don't see often. I am tired of doing things by myself. I wish I could have an answer for you, other than please keep busy so your depression doesn't get worse. I am praying for you, once you hit that rock bottom, it's VERY hard to climb out of it again.

Hello cara
You are not alone. As you can see a lot of people have replied to your post. I have not met you and have spent a lot of time being by myself so I know what its like being alone. There are some good people on here with words of wisdom. I hope you feel better just by reaching out and addressing your situation. As for me I hope that these few words brighten up your day.