I’m sorry in advance for this kind of entry I’m just kind of down tonight and maybe need a friendly voice. I’m not really sure what I need. I’m having a self appointed first world problem. Haha..... I asked a friend out on a date and she said yes and I stupidly got excited to find out she has a boy friend which makes sense because she attractive and an all around just generally nice person. I’m 29 and I’m very shy, it’s difficult to meet intimate partners and I haven’t met anyone that I actually wanted to spend a great deal of time with in the past 5 years. I’m just wondering are there any good people out there that aren’t already taken? Sometimes it just feels like despite looks and good demeanor I’m just destined to spend my life facing things alone. 

       Again I’m sorry for wasting anyone’s time I realize that this is rediculous and it’s just a trivial problem that only affects me but it’s just difficult to deal with sometimes. I constantly ask myself if I made a mistake by breaking up with my last relationship which was a 6 year commitment that was abusive, but constant. Now I wonder if it was just better to suck up the abuse and stay? It’s hard to get out of bed some days. I just want to meet one nice unattached person without a history of depression and drug abuse.