I meet 4 guys last year and dated. I stood out from the rest. We saw and did things several times a weeks up until Jan..around super bowl time. I got a new job...HAPPY because I was ashamed of my living situation (Im living in a hotel because I lost my job & couldnt afford my apartment any more). He was going thru a divorce. I didnt want to be close to him, just wanted to date so I didnt have to think about my problems all the time. He is 58 and I'm 53. I thought he would be mature-nope! He told me he couldnt stand me, I was too negative and he needed to not have all that in his life. It didnt bother me because things have started looking up for me and I didnt care what he said. Then he started wanting things back....58 yrs old. I was like...get lost...who ask for anything back that doesnt have value? Anyway, fast forward, I alone wanting to share my life with someone..the right one. My fear is dying alone having never loved again (I'm divorced). I have said Im going to start getting out more by myself, exploring more things because online dating is not working for me and I dont want to pay to meet losers...any advise on how to deal with being alone?