Hello--Right now I feel like making myself throw up. I don't know what is making me feel like that. I think it's because I have no one to share my feelings of guilt over not giving an employer two weeks notice. I also feel extremely nervous since my mom left this afternoon. I miss her a lot when she leaves. She'll be back tomorrow. I am recovering from almost committing suicide so she's been really worried about me. I might get my car back tomorrow. I'm afraid I'm going to gain a lot of weight because I feel afraid to be seen out in public. I was in the hospital and then I've mostly been in my apartment with occasional appointments.

I'm really afraid of what made me suicidal in the first place. It is so frightening to me. I went to a support group for 30 minutes--it's all I could stand because of a lot of triggers that the other group members talked about.

I feel afraid about driving. I just feel afraid. Please write. Suzi