afreshstart I never cut ..I only attempted suside once ..once to often ...

she wouldent have to tell about the cutting ...to get help

I used to carve intricate designs into my leg with a #10 scalpel...I'd be at it for hours, and then, one day, it suddenly wasn't enough anymore...the pain didn't hurt enough, the cuts didn't bleed enough, the alcohol didn't burn enough...yeah, I know the feeling well

ah gotcha

But don't they already know about the cutting, fresh?

I have a grandaughter who was cutting ..she is seeing a phicatrist ..and on meds and realy doing much better now ....I can't talk to the cutting its self ..because I never did it ....so I don't realy understand it ..I always thought of it as the deapest way of crying to watch your life blood leaking out ....

School and my parents? Nope not at all. They think I'm perfectly fine and not depressed or harming at all. I told them I'd speak up when I'm not okay and I fall back but I haven't at all and I lied and said I was fine and I stopped harming.

Have you ever been a runner, musk?

So, fresh, then they're aware you used to do it, but unaware of you CURRENTLY doing it?

when I was 14 I tried to run away with my boyfriend but my parents caught me and dragged me back and sent me away ...that boyfriend is the man I am married to today

Yes they are aware I used to harm myself by cutting but when they found out that was a while ago and it was only 2 cuts (one on each elbow) and school never found out. And yeah nobody knows I'm currently doing it

well it was realy good chatting ..with the two of you but I realy need to try and get some sleep ...I have a very bissey day tomorow ......take very good care of your selves ....God bless I will keep you both in my prayers

Thanks musk. Try and sleep well. Thanks for the prayers

you are very welcome ..and I will try to get some sleep ..good night

Good night musk