I found out my husband was cheating on my with a girl from his gym. He went on a date with her and came home without his ring on. That's the only way I found out. He told me he was with a friend but after I started to question why he took his ring off he finally told me. I feel completely betrayed and angry. He says he stopped talking to her and has had no connection since I found out. He left that gym and hasn't been back. I want to work things out and have gone to counselors which help but I can't help it when I get angry. I have been physically and mentally abusive to him after this all happened even gave him a black eye. I feel so much guilt after the abuse but again when I'm feeling so angry it's like none of that matters. I need help. When I'm feeling rage I want him to say all the right things and when he doesn't it makes me so angry and I act out. I feel so low about myself because of this but I don't know how to control this. Any advice?
I don't know for awhile now I have been trying the no contact thing and its been going good but I got up today wanting to text him and call him the urge was really strong today and just missimg him like Crazy today but I'm at work and I'm just going to push thru and ignore the urges as much as I can to not contact him at all