Infertility Support Group

In vitro fertilization is one of the most common and utilized ways of treating conception problems. This support group is dedicated to those beginning their journey with IVF and needing support. Join the community and share your experiences, advice, and story with people going through similar challenges starting a family.

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knm
knm

Hi all. I am a 24 year old woman who married a wonderful, 25 year old man 2 years ago. We always knew we wanted a family and we wanted to start immediately so we could enjoy being young, active parents. We never thought in a million years that when we were ready, it wasn’t going to be that easy. Recently, it is has gotten more and more difficult for me to manage my feelings toward my infertility and the fertility of people around me. I feel guilty for complaining because my journey has not been as extensive as others. My husband and I are somewhat new to the infertility community. We’ve been TTC for 2 years with no luck. My husband has varicocele and had surgery in May 2017 to hopefully give us a chance of conceiving. We have not been through IUIs or IVF cycles. We have not miscarried or had ectopic pregnancies. We simply have never been able to conceive. I feel guilty for feeling hopeless and despair. I feel guilty for feeling like an empty shell of a woman and wife. I feel guilty for unfriending and unfollowing everyone in my life who is pregnant or just had a baby because I can’t stand to see it. It doesn’t get any easier to see your period arrive every month. It doesn’t get any easier to experience signs of early pregnancy and think “maybe this will be it” and then it’s not. I feel silly for ever believing that maybe this is the month, when I know it will probably never come. I am the oldest child from a family who never had any difficulties conceiving. I am the first friend of my group to get married and want to actively TTC. I have no support from family or friends that understand the pain and desire that comes with infertility. They think they help by saying there are other options, just relax, if it is meant to be... I don’t know how to keep going when the only thing I want in life, I can’t have. 

cosmicgirl12
cosmicgirl12
Dear your post made me cry. This is exactly how I feel. And this is so hard! I'm so sorry for all women who faced infertility. I was born without a uterus. I always knew I will never be able to conceive and carry a baby. Still this is really hard. Literally everyone around is getting pregnant, giving birth and rising their children. Of course this makes me sad! I'm happy for my friends, for my relatives, for my colleagues, etc. But I constantly asking "why this is not me?" I want to become a mother more than anything else. This is so unfair! This is so hard to see photos of children on Facebook and other social networks. Sometimes I really have to unfollow people because this is too hard. Sometimes I have to make up reasons not to come for baby showers and babies’ birthdays. This is too much for me. After such events I feel myself so broken. I wish all of us to find a way out which will lead us to motherhood! All of us should be strong and keep going because we deserve to be happy!
babyboom
babyboom
Hello honey! I'm so sorry to hear about your fertility struggles. I know how hard it is for you. I'm sorry you have to go through such thing. My husband and I were TTC for 10 years. I've got pregnant but because of my health condition (glomerulonephritis) I couldn't carry the whole pregnancy and give birth. There is nothing I can do to cure my kidneys to the point when I can carry my baby and have a healthy delivery. During these 10 years there were so many times when I wanted to give up. I even visited specialists who could help me to cope with the situation. Well it helped a bit, but after my loss I was so depressed I wanted to quit trying and live childless life. But I just can't imagine my life without children. Long TTC, my disease and infertility change me completely. Now I'm a different person then I was before. To be honest I don't like a person I became. I used to be very positive, funny. I loved life and I was always trying to find good side in everything. Now I am sad, upset, depressed, stressed and disappointed. I can't even say I live my life. I exist and wait for miracle to come into my life. I think "when I will have a child everything will change" or "I will be happy when I become mother”. Some people tell "find a distraction" or "enjoy every minute, everything is going like it's supposed to be" or "don't concentrate your whole life on infertility and then you will definitely get what you want". I don't think it works that way. At least for me it never worked. I should say now I feel a little bit better. The reason of it is that we found option which may help us to become parents. The idea of surrogacy came to our minds not so long ago. I feel much better knowing that there is a chance for us to have a baby. I'm only at the beginning of my journey. Actually it didn't even start yet. I do my best to find all information we will need in our journey. Did you think about options you can have in your situation? Maybe it's better to have a consultation with your doctor. He will probably advise you something or at least tell you what the exact reason of your infertility. You will know if you should continue trying for example ivf with your own eggs or maybe you should try donor eggs. Moreover there are still surrogacy and adoption left. I hope you will find the best option which will suit your situation. I wish you best of luck!