It is fine to talk here. I bet there is nothing that has not been said or heard before. I have told about a "little problem" I had a long time ago and kept a sense of humor about it. Your problem may not be like mine but feel free to talk about it. No one will judge you for or against. I sure won't.

I dont think you've heard this one before but here goes nothing xD I've never really felt the need to masturbate. Well okay I did occasionally from the ages 14-19. But I literally haven't since I was diagnosed with schizophrenia at age 19 mostly because of the sexual side effects of the many medications I'm on. But I recently went back to college since I finally feel like I have some control over my life but now all of a sudden I'm horny as hell? What gives? And I cant do anything about it because I am afraid to be alone. It's a phobia that stems from the schizophrenia. I convinced my parents to let me move 5 hours away saying I'm doing a lot better and I'll prove it...and its true I am doing better, during the day when I'm not alone. I spend 90% of my time on campus surrounded by people and only go to my apartment around midnight to sleep but when I do I still struggle, it's a constant battle with my brain but I've learned coping mechanisms. I can calm myself down but the fear comes in waves and never really leaves. And I want to do it when I'm alone but I cant calm down enough to do it. It's hard to have an orgasm when you're trying not to fall off the deep end into insanity....I feel like my only option is to do it in public somehow without people seeing/realizing what I'm doing...

I dont think I should have said anything. Y'all cant help anyway. Dont worry about it. This site has really gone downhill since I was last here anyway.

Why don’t you try masturbating in the shower before going to school? You’re alone and it’s private. If you can’t calm down enough to orgasm, start slowly until your relaxed enough to let go.

There is absolutely nothing wrong with what you’ve said. I don’t have your condition but I can’t masturbate unless I use a toy. I never touched myself when I was younger I always felt weird when I tried because girls get horny too (sorry joke from a Netflix series about puberty). And I’ve only started after having kids and getting very needy when alone. Maybe talk to your doctor about it

I can try doing it in the shower. I've never tried that before. Showers are naturally somewhat calming so we'll see. Thanks.