I'm talking to this girl on a dating site,  It's one of these pay-as-go things.  So, You have to buy credit to talk to other member's.

I just tryed it, I was curious about, it, I wanted to see who was out there.  one girl I favorite, was cute, her profile said she was from the United States,  But, she sent me a sound bite, turns out she was from Mexico, But, I continuued the convorsation.....And she started getting inappropriate, so I blocked her.

Now, I'm talking a more down-to-earth girl, who really clinged on to me, and honestly I really really like.

Now, the problem  she's sending alot of pics,  and I'm seeing EVERYTHING if You what I mean.

Also. I suspect she may have PTSD (we know eachother good enough now, We can can open up to eachother)

I wrote her a letter one day,  I told her about my trauma,  the situation I talk about here, hopeing it would help her feel more comfortable, and she would open to me, it didn't work.

Her profile says she's a phsychiotrist, and googled....."do people with PTSD become phsychiotrists becaus of their own trauma"......The answer was Yes, I forget the explanation it gave me.

Also, does seem forget thing's, Like, I tell her I have to go dark, @ like 6:30-7 O'CLOCK,  and I look at my phone in the morning, the time stamp say's 10-10:30pm  and says where did You go,  You wanna chat? (I do have sleep apnea, so that's why I have to go dark that early,  but, I think she gets it now.

And she send's me nude pics (That's what  I meen about EVERYTHING.......well, You get it,  Anyway, the pics look like their in her kitchen, living room....etc, where anybody could just walk in and see her.

despite all that,  I reslly like this girl, she also sends me picks of he amazing smile....Which is all I need, and I have told her that, and she said she liked the fact that I told her that. But still getting nudes.

She is charming, caring, thoughtful.....and downright BEAUTIFUL.....I've really fallen for her.

But, the thing is......as musch as I really want to meet her, she lives in Chicago, of course we have contact info, which the dating dating company witholds....and You need 5000 credit's to unlock,  I don't have anything near that,  But, I did email the company, and told them about her.....and I think they must have bumped me up too 5000, so that's good.

of course I am disabled, and getting around is kinda difficult for me sometimes, and I still live with my parent's: who have to know where am at all times like............Anyway,  sorry about the long post, I just need someone to talk to about this, and some support from friend's.

Thanks for listening