I guess being angry at this moment is a part of the whole process and I need it to help myself. I appreciate everyone's help over here and I will think over it ..

Sadly i don't really have any one else to talk so this is why i decided to write this post and get some feedback. I am writing about how I feel, sharing it with you all, and I am sorry if some just don't agree with my thoughts, I speak what I feel and this will never change.

cristinaki i feel the exact samme way as you. I'm 27 and only had ONE SERIOUS RELATIONSHIP it lasted 4 in a half years we were engaged to be married and at one point i was pregnant wit his child which later turned into a miscarriage because of all the stress I was under with fighting with him but after that feel apart TWO YEARS AGO I too have trouble believing I'm going to find love again. it's hard to be confident when you were hurt as much as you have been. i can udnerstand you life has been very difficult for me as well in hs I liked so many guys who just never felt the same as me and i was picked on an bullied alot growing up. life has been a struggle for me. I am at a point in my life as well where all my friends are starting their lifes out with being married and having kids and I'm just stuck being single. i can def understand your feelings of thinkig your going to be alone. i feel that way every day. but you just gotta try and believe that just maybe there is someone out there for us and it's just not our time yet. if we give up on love completely then we just might miss out on a wonderful oppourtunity that may come our way. I am always down on myself as well telling every9one I know it's never going to happen for me getting married and having kids it's just not in the cards for me but people are always telling me to stop saying that because we are young and we have plenty of time to be with someone we just have to be patient. Im not trying t olecture you because im with you 100 percent. just focus on you and make yourself a better person inside and out so you can feel good about yourself again. like the others here have said if you take your mind off of love then before you know it love will happen to you. maybe not not maybe not tomorrow but it will happen !!!

I'm never sure why there is this expectation that everyone will get to have LOVE in their lives. They won't. The numbers are showing more single person households than ever - this is the new norm.

At 43 I've seen a lot of people go through the whole roundabout 2-5 times and be lining up for another go at it. I just don't get it. I doubt it will ever happen for me - and why should it? I'm no different to the other hundreds of millions out there - except that, I'm OK with it. I'm happy in my own company and don't ever need to settle just so that I'm not alone..........

I'd rather be alone - than in most of the relationships I see out there these days - that are based upon desperation and need.

Learn to do your own thing. It may happen for you, it may not - but either way - it, and you, will be fine.