I wasnt planning to date anyone for a bit after i left my toxic relationship. But someone who i really had feelings for started talking to me pretty intensely. I liked them a lot and wasnt about to turn a good thing down. 

Unfortunately, they experienced a terrible tragedy in their family. They sent me a long and heartfelt message about how they needed to pull back to be there for their family right now, but that they cared about me a lot and did not intend to abandon me. It was kind of a shock, but I expressed empathy of course.

They've been in touch since then but not nearly to the same degree. I expected as much. But god its so painful. I feel very insecure right now. Im doing my best to go out and see friends, try to focus on my healing. But I cant stop thinking about them, wondering if they really meant what they said, or if they just weren't really into me? Or maybe this really has nothing to do with me, and things might circle back at some point.

Everything feels up in the air. I didnt expect to get hurt again so quickly. Im definitely taking a break from dating people for a while now. I feel so raw from everything lately :(