Gambling Addiction & Recovery Support Group
Compulsive gambling is an urge or addiction to gamble despite harmful negative consequences or a desire to stop. A preferred term among many professionals is problem gambling, as few people described by the term experience true compulsions in the clinical sense of the word. Problem gambling often is defined by whether harm is experienced by the gambler or others rather...
I do not quite restrict myself as much as GA suggests we may have to. For instance they define gambling as playing for money, or points or to earn prizes. So this definition would include Scrabble, Yahtzee, all board games, collect and win games at grocery stores. Every one must figure out what our own triggers are. Scrabble, Yahtzee, Cribbage, Spider Solitaire don't trigger me. Poker or slots for free on line, pretend gambling with poker chips and sometimes the "candy crush" type games trigger me. I don't play them any more. I have a friend in recovery that had to quit going fishing. The anticipation of catching the fish was giving her the feeling of gambling. I know actually going to a casino would send me over into the deep end.
I do not want to discourage you, if this works for you, great! I did use all the cash blocking tools I had as slot machines are almost on every corner, in every deli, bar and restaurant in my town.
Here is the problem that has nothing to do with money. It was when I lied about where I was. When I left work "Sick" just to go to the casino and then didn't beat my husband home and had to come up with some elaborate lie to cover my tracks. The sick feeling after I lied was worse then the sick feeling of losing money.
How did I become this person that would look someone in the face a lie to them? The lies were coming easier and easier. What level would I stoop to?
No more............... Self Ban was the only way for me to stop the lies.
Everyone has different approach of their recovery just as everyone has different triggers to gamble. But the one most commonly talked about among gamblers in recovery, who has some time under their belt, is how we appreciate our life without gambling, what makes us feel so much better as a person, emotionally and psychologically. It isn't about how we are able to control our gambling but it is more about living freely, honestly and with honor and dignity we've once lost by gambling.
Kudos to your effort! Keep doing what works for you. One day at a time!
Love,
Victoria
When I first tried to quit, I put myself on a budget, much like you. I gave myself $40-100 per week to go to the casino (as opposed to $300-1200).
This worked for about six months. Sometimes I won, sometimes I lost, but it didn't matter, because I could technically afford a swing up or down of $40-100 per week without my significant other noticing. I thought I had the best of all worlds.
And then, about six months in, I had a windfall. I was ecstatic. About $9K, all at once.
Of course, I reasoned, I wasn't going to gamble it all. I was just going to "supplement" my casino wagers with this $9K. Just enough to double it, I thought.
So I went back. A few hundred here, a thousand a time or two, and before you knew it, I was bringing the entire $9K, in cash from a bewildered-looking bank clerk, to the casino at the bottom of my bag. I reasoned I needed to spend money to make money.
I don't need to tell you how this ended for me. I think you already know; I went up $2K and then proceeded to lose $11K on a dreadful day at the casino. And I ended up having to tell my significant other the whole story. I didn't even quit for four months later, at which time I did a self-ban.
Look, you have to do what works best for you, and I hope that my cautionary tale is received as it is meant to be, which is just a gentle warning that I personally could not wane myself away. I consider myself to be a person of solid judgment and character, but I could not think clearly so long as I was under the power of our addiction. Maybe you can. But I thought I would share in case it helps or resonates at all.