Gambling Addiction & Recovery Support Group
Compulsive gambling is an urge or addiction to gamble despite harmful negative consequences or a desire to stop. A preferred term among many professionals is problem gambling, as few people described by the term experience true compulsions in the clinical sense of the word. Problem gambling often is defined by whether harm is experienced by the gambler or others rather...
whew!!!! i almost blew it today..... and the urges are still strong.... geesh...
i made some money the other day, i didnt even to go deposit it in the bank, for fear i would end up at a casino.... i didnt go anywhere alone. my friend picked me up and we went to lunch, and then i stayed home.
all day just thinking about gambling today... i hate it!!!
at least now, after lots of training and fighting, i am thinking up as many excuses to not gamble, as i am excuses to gamble.
i know i will not win... i know it is not worth it.
the last thing i need in my life right now.... which is already upside down, is to go home from a casino feeling THAT feelling again.
i hadnt been having urges..... today just reminded me that we are never NEVER free. One day at a time...
at least now i can win these urges... i can see progress.
i know i can be a free person. looking back to the days when i couldnt make it a day, when i was scraping ever scrap of change i could find... so i would have enough to eat cause i spent all my money on gambling.
and most times, i spent my change as well on gambling. 3 bank accounts thrown away in the dumpster cause of overdrafting and owing money.
the debt, the pay day loan juggles.
of that right now i am free... so i have something to be thankful for
if i can do it, anyone can. hang in there everyone....
i made some money the other day, i didnt even to go deposit it in the bank, for fear i would end up at a casino.... i didnt go anywhere alone. my friend picked me up and we went to lunch, and then i stayed home.
all day just thinking about gambling today... i hate it!!!
at least now, after lots of training and fighting, i am thinking up as many excuses to not gamble, as i am excuses to gamble.
i know i will not win... i know it is not worth it.
the last thing i need in my life right now.... which is already upside down, is to go home from a casino feeling THAT feelling again.
i hadnt been having urges..... today just reminded me that we are never NEVER free. One day at a time...
at least now i can win these urges... i can see progress.
i know i can be a free person. looking back to the days when i couldnt make it a day, when i was scraping ever scrap of change i could find... so i would have enough to eat cause i spent all my money on gambling.
and most times, i spent my change as well on gambling. 3 bank accounts thrown away in the dumpster cause of overdrafting and owing money.
the debt, the pay day loan juggles.
of that right now i am free... so i have something to be thankful for
if i can do it, anyone can. hang in there everyone....
You've got to be really proud of yourself right now - that's awesome!I went through a similar experience the other day too, and NO - we are never free of it; it can sneak up on us at any time. But - you handled it - WTG
Smokeygirl
''For me...money 'access ''fueled 'triggers,, urges.. when 'I was fairly new'..
'Today . I keep monies in the bank,,,I do not have large amounts of cash 'in my home or 'wallet anytime.. 'Money at one time Had no Value,,,,and Plastic even less..
WTg with not going ''gambling..''
sanr..
i know how money has no value, and it is beginning to again for me.
im starting to remember times when i thought 20 bucks was expensive, and wouldnt have dared spend it in a casino.
with me, didnt matter if i took access out of my hands, i could find a way. i was a dealer in a casino, i knew lots of tricks. i just had to learn, the hard way, to say NO. no matter what. cause family and friends werent there to help me. i tried letting my ex fiancee take over, but he left and left me with nothing. so im on my own with this beast. all i can say is, i remember when there wasnt a day to go by that i couldnt gamble. i couldnt stop. now there is time between slips.... and i can see progress, and each time i win a little more.
im just glad i can say NO now. not like before.
Thanks so much for sharing that. You've given me hope. I went through a similar experience this weekend and the feeling of not giving in is wonderful. I guess one of the tricks is to just get through a few hours or minutes at a time. thanks again.... keep hanging in!