Well, I just got the letter a couple days ago that they have denied me any SSDI benefits. This is the first denial I have gotten, this time. For those of you that don't know, I applied and was denied all the way up to the SSJudge about 5 years ago. I gave up then, but my grown children have been bugging me to do it again. Well, I did and they denied me. I am, however going to try to appeal their decision. Ya know what really get's me is that even the first time I tried years ago, my doc sent them 2 or 3 letters saying he didn't think I should work. How in the world can they say no to that doctors letters?! They said in this letter that they feel that even tho I can no longer do my past work, I have the ability to do something less physical and that even part time work can be considered substantial employment in their world. Hey, maybe they will hire me and give me days off without prior notice whenever I have a flare up and can't work for possibly 1 to 3 days. Or maybe I can't work for 4 months at a time, cuz that is how long it took me to get over the last flare. They also feel that my health issues are being managed well enough. Sheesh! I wish they'd let my body know that it is not as bad as it thinks it is, that it is under control! It just makes me soooo mad! I think it's probably useless to keep going, but I am gonna give it a good try anyway. On top of all that, 3 weeks ago I had strep throat, was treated and got better. 3 days ago I have caught this darn cold that everybody has around here. GRRRR! Seems somedays you should just stay in bed!! Sorry I am not better company tonight, but, between the stress,the cold, and my legs wanting to play jumprope when I'm wanting to sleep, I am miserable. Although I would never do it, I certainly can understand why people get so depressed that they want to end the torture. If I didn't have the wonderful. loving family that I have, I probably would seriously consider that as an out from all this darn crap!! Hope you all are having good days! Hugs to ya all! Cheryl