Ughhh Leo that sucks. Hoping your power doesn't stay out too long and your tree stays upright. Let us know how you're doing if you can. Hugs
Work was pretty busy again and I'm about ready to collapse. They still don't know how much snow we're getting here. I need to clear some space to fold the treadmill down just in case. Guess I'll figure out on Thursday if I'm using it. If there's not much on the ground yet I can run outside safely. We'll see. Probably going to do a shorter one since I've been so run down...my run this morning was not fun. And tomorrow I'm really hoping it's not crazy busy, I hope to leave as early as I can so I can get some burning done. I can't even put into words how much I want all of this to be over. The holidays, winter, covid, politics, bitchy people, everything.

Hey Leo,

Sorry the weather is going to get rough. And I hope your tree can stay upright just a bit longer. I certainly hope you won't be reaching out to a new kind of contractor if it comes down.

And like Miki shared, if you can, pop on to avoid life even for a moment or two and let us know you're surviving it all.

Miki, so sorry to hear life is just crazy right now for you too. 15 days and it will all be past us.
I too hope you won't get hit too hard as well.


I just came on tonight. My mind is just wandering off and I really don't know what I'm doing.

Just got off the phone with the vet. Tank is more worse off than my little head wanted to believe. We are going to try full time muscle relaxers now. He won't most like us "show us any more signs", his neck issues are too far gone. So now I have to make the calculated schedule of just when to put him down. He still has that spark. Just not the body to match. And my head is not in a good place for all of this.

Then Danno earlier shared that he just doesn't think he will be any good at anything in his life. Everything he does he fails at, or so he believes. I need to get him to try something he can succeed at. I need to boost his self esteem, and show him all the ways he does succeed. But my momma eyes have a different view. Then I heard of yet another teen death. Suicide. Same Covid crap, another wonderful kid....I see the warning signs in Danno. I'm glad he feels he can come to me.

And to top it all off, we have the kitten issue. Do I fight to keep them? I want to, for the boys well being, but will that all drive my hubby crazy? I need a super hero cape? Anyone have an extra they can overnight me perhaps???

Today I hate covid. So very very much!
And I'm allowing myself to hate it. If you want to join me...my misery loves company.

I'll try to check in tomorrow. If now, hugs to all!

Leo i hope your not getting hit too hard!

Miki i am so over it all too

Wonder, i dealt with bad depression as a teen and at 15 attempted suicide. I am so glad your son is able to go to you that is a good thing! I went to my mom but not until after my failed attempt.

Up at 5 am naturally again i like early morning though. My pain is high after yesterdays two store shopping trip. Diet root beer is the new shortage and most diet pop right now. They are only really making diet coke pepsi mtn dew and 7 up. My OBGYN office will not give me my depo shot until after i get my yearly in jan i was due end of last month. WIth dad dying i didnt realize i had missed it till i started feeling PMS symptoms two days ago and its getting worse. It explain my stomach pain i am on the depo for endrometroysis and they left the decision up to the PA NOT my Dr which i do not agree with. I was suppose to get my yearly the day dad got admitted and died 4 days later i rescheduled though for Jan 11th it was the soonest i could get in! I am pissed off about this.

Morning Leo - I sure hope that storm isn't as bad as it sounds. And, that your tree remains upright. We might get about an inch of snow today. Something has my allergies in a full uproar today. I've been sneezing and blowing my nose since early this morning. Nothing like waking up with a CPAP clamped to your face and unable to breathe...

It's official - I am absolutely done Christmas shopping. I just finished ordering a couple of things for my niece in Cali. One from a local business there and the other from Amazon. She will have both in time for the holiday. Not taking any chances as the post office is now gridlocked with mail and packages. Every single hub is completely overwhelmed. They have no idea how they are going to move all of the mail but apparently will die trying to get it to the destination before Christmas. Late yesterday, I finally got the book that I ordered December 2nd and was sent *priority mail*. That took two weeks....

I am getting my hair cut today which is a good thing. It is a mess. And, I need to get out of here for a while. The salon has a designated corner for high risk people. The only person that will come in contact with me is the stylist.

Miki - I am sorry that fatigue continues to be such an issue. I hope that the snow total up your way isn't too horrible. I see that Boston is expecting a foot. Hang in there today.

Womder - I am so sorry about Tank. The poor guy and poor you having to even think about his situation with the holiday so close. It's a good thing that Danno can and does talk to you about how he is feeling. I hope that you can figure something out to boost his self esteem. Those kittens are so cute that I would want to keep them too. If they are strictly indoor why would the HOA even care that they exist? You can share my cape if you like!

Hi AngelaJo - We have periodic pop shortages here too. Sometimes the shelves are stocked and others it looks like a swarm of locusts hit the pop aisle. I'm sorry about your depo shot. Wouldn't it be nice if people would just listen and understand instead of just making arbitrary decisions. I hope that you can just rest today after running around.

Time for me to get a couple of things done around here before I need to leave. Shoutout to Ida, PainedOne, Maynard, Twin, Zombie, PuppyMom, and Milily. I will try to check back later.

Leo, you sound so sad. I hope you’re lights stay on and your tree stays up.

Miki, I’m so sorry the current troubles in the world are so hard on you. I so understand. Don’t slip on your run.

Wonder, so sorry about Tank. Those big guys don’t have long lives unfortunately. I feel so sad for you. Poor Danno, and you too. It’s so hard to see our kids suffer. You are a good mom that he comes to you. I will be praying.

Angela, too bad on your shot. Sometimes medical folks just don’t listen.

Fantod, thanks for the shoutout. I’m done Christmas shopping too. Just waiting for some Starbucks gift cards to get here. Everything is wrapped. Hope your day goes well and your hair is all pretty.

Today is a lazy one. I cleaned the bathroom and kitchen this morning. Now I’m done for the day. TD is still going well. It’s a real blessing.

Dad is still alive. It’s unbelievable as they thought he would die ten days ago. He is so weak. I hope he goes soon.

Blessings.

I called OBGYN again and asked them to talk to MY DR not the PA, they had me come in at 1 pm today get a pregnancy test then gave me my depo shot YAY!!!!!!!! So in a few days i should feel better!

Hi to all. I am sorry I don't come on much. I am so depressed I don't deal with anyone even my partner well. I went down sick Thanksgiving night after baking all day and am still taking antibiotics for pneumonia and a sinus and glandular infection. I am so weak that I can't be up for more than a few minutes. I hate my health and have been in quarantine since I was sick with covid a year ago.
It is so good to see you all still here. I will try to check in when I am able. Hugs to Angela it is so hard to lose a parent. My thoughts and prayers are with you. Leo I hope your electricity stays on and the tree behaves.
Ok sorry I am in need of laying down again UGG. Love to all.

AngelaJo - Good for you for sticking up for yourself! Glad you got your Depo shot!

Hey Autumn - So nice to see you! I'm so sorry that your health continues to be so horrible. How is your daughter doing? I hope that you will be able to check in even with a sentence from time to time. Hugs and support to you!

Sorry those weather events cause negative feelings for you.

I enjoy, lookin forward to weather and its extremes. Such a feeling of safety and peace. It’s exciting when fall and winter weather comes.

Snow is so pretty and clean and quiet. Wind lets you know whats happenin outside. Is exciting to see the wind blowing trees, clouds, and leaves.. Interesting to watch the wind do its thing.

Rain reminds me how fortunate I am to be warm and safe indoors. Makes me happy when it rains hard in summer to water my plants, so I don’t have to. And ohhhh what a delightful scent when the rain stops and that wonderful clean smell is everywhere.

In all these things I praise God and thank him.

Even when our brand new two-week-old Toyota was smashed by a falling tree. So grateful no one was hurt. And that tree needed to be chopped down anyway. Saved us work.

Even as my family was huddled in a closet waiting for a tornado to pass, i felt scared. I also felt Good that my family was safe with me and that I was not alone.

Yes, even when our power was off for a month from an ice and snow storm. Was quite an adventure cooking coffee and food out side. Getting to go stay in a hotel when it finally was too cold to stay home. Ultimately, the neighbor let us plug in to their generator..

An adventure I will never forget. Everything that happens in my life because of weather, is a welcome adventure no matter what happens.

Such a full life with Jesus,

Merry Christmas!