Hello and welcome. Sorry to hear you were having such a bad night. Insomnia really makes the mind churn, especially when it's pain keeping you up.

Have you ever seen or considered counselling of some sort to help with some of this anxiety? I know that, for me personally, CBT - cognitive behavioural therapy - gave me a lot of applicable skills to deal with some of the mindsets brought on by my pain and my situation.

And of course this place is always here for musing and venting on the beast of fibro.
Hope you're doing a bit better today, and welcome again.

Hi, I am new on here. I do know exactly how you feel. My boyfriend is much younger than me, so I too fear he will tire of my illness and the different person I have become.

Are you on meds for depression? You have to fight it with all the tools you can find. I, too, have sleep issues as I imagine most of us here have. I am been reading The fibro manual by a doctor who has fibro and I am going to start working on her sleep recommendations. Without good solid sleep, everything in our body suffers, and while I drug myself to sleep, I know I don't get good quality sleep.

Hang in, look for all the resources you can find and keep loving him. If he is true, he will learn to cope too.

Hello and I am glad you're here. Been there. I'm pretty sure when I am having my worst insomnia/fear/anxiety/anger times in the middle of the night I usually end up here. Even before anybody gets back to you (which they do! thank you, thank you) it feels good just to get it out. Maybe journaling will help too. And there's always prayer - a little "giving it away" to an entity who can maybe handle it better than we can. (no proselytizing, just my own way to cope.) A big smile and a hug with a wish for peace to you.

How long have you had fibro? Do you take any sleep med or pain meds? I would suggest revisting those issues with your doc.

Since I lost a husband perhaps due to fibro (when I had to stop working, he started backing away, but he did not love me, I think), I would suggest not worrying about the matter of whether or not you'll lose your boyfriend. Maybe you will. If so, okay, you'll make it by yourself and it could be a lot easier on you not having to worry about pleasing someone else.
Just take care of you. Be kind to you and get the best care of your illnesses as possible. Get support. Hugs.

PS, the guy making the pitch for products--this isn't allowed per protocol.

Prush _ you are not alone - you have found a group of good, caring, supportive people who also have fibro. Most of us have had those low thoughts and times - again you are not alone.

Talk to your Dr about not sleeping , it really does make the pain and your overall health worse to not get good quality and quantity of sleep. Take care.

Thank you all for the encouragement and advice. Right after I posted this my phone broke, so I am just seeing them all now. Things are still crazy, but I feel better knowing I'm not alone.

Prush I hope that you are starting to see that you have to take care of yourself first. Love yourself enough to do whatever it takes to give you some peace of mind. I am a chronic insomniac. I was born without the natural chemicals that cause sleep. I have taken the gambit of meds to make me sleep only to have them work for awhile and then do the opposite. I take Trazadone now ranging from one to three at a time. I still have times when nothing works but have found that the less I stress about it the sooner I am able to catch a few zzz's. It is very important that you have a good doctor that will help you with sleep. I use a sound machine, and breathing to help. I find that if I can concentrate on my breath in and out and not let my mine wander I can usually manage a few hours of sleep at a time.. I hope you find what works best for you soon.