Hello -  my name is Penni.  I have been a member of the group for a long time but don't often post.  I have been feeling down, anxious and most of all, lonely in my condition.  I had a couple good months during the summer when the weather was a warmer ( not the days that were too hot :)  but now we have the overcast, gloom, colder mornings .  I can almost feel my brain deceiving my body and my mind.  The pain, flu like symptoms, depression and all the negative self talk that comes along with it are making me feel like I want to crawl into a hole.  With the holidays coming, there is alot to do and I just feel unmotivated  :(   I have a nice husband but feel like I don't want to talk about the same old thing again.

I know I would tell someone else to take care of themself and be kind as well but .... I just can't seem to get there. 

I want to cry, curl up in a ball and stay there until the pain, depression, self - loathing, brain fog and all of the wonderful things that comes along with my fibro.  

To those of you that understand - thank you and I hope you are doing well.  To those who are feeling the same as I am - stay strong !!!  There will be a better day !!!   Blessings and love to you all.