Fibromyalgia Support Group
You're not alone in your pain. Fibromyalgia is a condition that can be difficult to diagnose and manage. If you're trying to cope with pain throughout your body, sleep problems, general fatigue, or other common fibromyalgia symptoms, you're in the right place. The community is here for you to talk about therapies and share your challenges.
Saturday was a bad day... that day just pissed me off!
Yesterday i was SO depressed.... i felt like no matter how hard i try to do things, it wasn\'t good enough.
and you know.... for us, doing every little thing causes pain. Matthew asked me to hold up a small bracket to the wall so he could screw it in with the drill. it was only a few inches above my head, but after about 30 secs, my arms burned so bad with pain! i had to tell him to get my bro to help him and he got mad at me.
I felt like if I was "normal" none of these little things in life would hurt or bother me, let alone doing big things like fixing my car (i miss workin on it).
and then yesterday Matthew said he was tired of my anger and how i tend to yell.
i hit bottom..... i went upstairs and sat on the floor just sobbing. i was sick n tired of feeling this stupid pain!!!!!! i HATE IT!!!! my head got lower and lower till eventually i was laying it on the floor just f&cking crying.... i felt like i just wanted to curl up and die....
i wanted to scream!!!! that maybe if someone heard me, they would cure it, or it would just go away... but we all know that\'s not gonna happen. Matthew came upstairs eventually and apologized to me. he said he felt like an asshole, and that i\'m a really good person that has done more than anyone he knows. and they are all \'normal".
i feel a bit better today.... but every now and then i just can\'t help but feel "broken".... that the pain has overcome me. sometimes i wish other people would live in a our shoes for a day or two.... cuz i can\'t help it if things hurt so bad i can\'t do it! and then i feel like a failure and maybe i should curl up and die. BUT i always end up picking my self back up.... and continuing. I HATE LIVING WITH THIS SHIT.
thanks for letting me vent.... love you all here!
Yesterday i was SO depressed.... i felt like no matter how hard i try to do things, it wasn\'t good enough.
and you know.... for us, doing every little thing causes pain. Matthew asked me to hold up a small bracket to the wall so he could screw it in with the drill. it was only a few inches above my head, but after about 30 secs, my arms burned so bad with pain! i had to tell him to get my bro to help him and he got mad at me.
I felt like if I was "normal" none of these little things in life would hurt or bother me, let alone doing big things like fixing my car (i miss workin on it).
and then yesterday Matthew said he was tired of my anger and how i tend to yell.
i hit bottom..... i went upstairs and sat on the floor just sobbing. i was sick n tired of feeling this stupid pain!!!!!! i HATE IT!!!! my head got lower and lower till eventually i was laying it on the floor just f&cking crying.... i felt like i just wanted to curl up and die....
i wanted to scream!!!! that maybe if someone heard me, they would cure it, or it would just go away... but we all know that\'s not gonna happen. Matthew came upstairs eventually and apologized to me. he said he felt like an asshole, and that i\'m a really good person that has done more than anyone he knows. and they are all \'normal".
i feel a bit better today.... but every now and then i just can\'t help but feel "broken".... that the pain has overcome me. sometimes i wish other people would live in a our shoes for a day or two.... cuz i can\'t help it if things hurt so bad i can\'t do it! and then i feel like a failure and maybe i should curl up and die. BUT i always end up picking my self back up.... and continuing. I HATE LIVING WITH THIS SHIT.
thanks for letting me vent.... love you all here!
You go right ahead and vent all you need to. I really like sleepershedreams discription of this!! A broken toy no one wanted!!! We all have those days that sh** just hits the fan due the pain!! I really hope you are ding a little beter today!!
soft hugs xxxxxxxx\'s
pepsi
broken
diminished
out of order
kaput
busted
wrecked
shattered
cracked
damaged
defeated
dispirited
dejected
reduced
weak
faded
devalued
dwindled
deteriorated
COMPOST
Gonna plant some seeds today and add a little compost.
It can get so very hard at time to deal with this, and not be angry about how frustrating this all can be.
Just wanted to let you know, I am sending you warm caring thoughts.
Gentle hugs to you, Sherrall
I have never had to go the er for pain. but with the cyst on top of back and fibro.. couldnt take it!!!...
Its hard when our mates just dont get it.. cuz.. they dont have it... I have a pretty good guy. he has slacked off alot.. but. I dont say anything.. have to keep the peace...
You so not alone hun.. I think everyday bout feeling guilty bout a illness I couldnt prevent... its horrible.!!!.. big hugs hun.. god bless ya..:)
HUGS for a better tomorrow!
Dearest Daughter Bluesun,
I am so sorry you were in a bad way yesterday. I pray for you that you are feeling better today. To let you know I appreciated you so much. Thank you especially for getting my memoirs bound for my birthday, for remembering Mother\'s Day. I send you all my love and prayers. Love your mom, Carol purpledots
i love coming here and sharing things you all....
you\'re so understanding. thanks so much for caring about me! God bless!
Think about all of the hard stuff we go through each day. Every day...all day long. It\'s overwhelming. And if we pretend it\'s not there, Our bodies will still have a meltdown to some degree.
It\'s simply just too much.
So, when this comes along, allow yourself a pissy day...self pitty day, a day to be angry, a day to be sad....it\'s good for our healing process/acceptance process.
If you allow this to happen, you\'ll have better success at shaking it off.
I do hope things float in the right direction for you. Big hugs!
I can so relate to your feelings as many others here do too. I am so sorry that you had such a rough day yesterday but happy to hear your feeling better today. Difinitely some miserable stuff to deal with.
Take care of yourself and gentle hugs