Leo,

I know that fear quite well. It will scare the crap out of you for the next two weeks. Suddenly, everything is going to be focused on your heart. No way around that, unless you can just ignore it somehow. And I fail at that daily.

I have premature ventricle contractions. PVC's. Well we all do, but a select group of us can feel them. I never felt them before when I was younger but one day they just showed up. That was the day my anxiety and panic attacks started.
For me, I get them when the blood fill up in the lower quadrants and then the heart has to "PUMP" hard to get it out. So it's like my heart gets hiccups. And it's so disturbing. Wanna know what else trips it? Hormones! I keep joking that if I survive menopause, it will be amazing.

Another thing that trips it up, stress. All of that stress we carry goes right to our hearts or our guts (you know the inner ones,not the dress size reference). It can shut them both down. Our bodies were not meant to deal with the stress load we put onto them. And when they've had enough, they will start weeping or yelling in some way or fashion.

But we were also on a murmur scare when Andrew was still inutero. I had to go to a few specialists and then it wasn't confirmed until after he was born that he in fact did have a healthy heart. I still was concerned until he was about 2yrs old, but then his sleep apnea (that required surgery) took over and well, to be honest, I have checked on him every night these past 13yrs when I wake up at night. I don't know what I'll do when he moves out. I thinking stealth cams in his home.


It's a rough at tumbly day here. Last night we discovered a baseball sized lump in his armpit. My hubster didn't notice it until last night. It's really squishy, seems more like a fatty cyst, but I'm running on adrenaline here.

My head is just spinning, dealing with it all between mom, back to school, and now this. I prayed a lot last night. I can see more of that today too.

Anyways, I gotta run, I need to be at mom's soon, and get the house here in order (we've been gone so much, nothing has been getting done) as I have some friends of my mom's dropping off some food later for her.

I hope everyone has a great day today! Hugs to all.

Good morning friends,

Leo, my mom has had a heart murmur for years, I know it seems overwhelming and like one more thing, but I don't think there is anything to worry about. I will be praying for your anxiety and your heart.

Wonder, your heart would scare the crap out of me. So your husband has the lump in his armpit? I am praying either way and I sure hope you get some time to settle down soon. Hugs

This week has been the best for my stomach, until yesterday it started in right at 4pm and then this morning has been rough. My right side is really hurting and I'm bloated.

I had a rough morning with Maddie. She wouldn't even tell me goodbye when she got on the bus and didn't wave to me. So yes my heart feels broken today and I can't wait to see her.

I hope everyone has a good day.

Thank you both! I felt like it was this huge thing b/c the way they acted, but they said it was "subtle" and I don't know if that means I have to change my life or not?

Twin, Maddie is probably having a day like my late sis would have, testing things around her maybe?

Wonder, big hugs. I got a golf-ball like that showed up nearly overnight it seemed, and then it was just fluid and disappeared, ne'er to be seen again. Hugs.

I was around and reading yesterday. Made it out of the house to see a movie. I saw Operation Finale which was about getting the architect of the final solution out of South America 14 years after WWII. Slow but interesting to me as a history buff.

Leo - I have PVCs too like Wonder and I can feel them. They started just before my knee replacement. About two weeks before so I ended up having an echo and then a stress test done in short order. And, then I had my knee replaced as scheduled. I hate going to the doctor too because there is always some new drama. I just don't/can't care anymore. I'm at the point where I just say no and carry on as usual. There are only so many fingers that can be used to plug a leaking dam lol. My 91 year Mom has a heart murmur and it doesn't cause any problems.

Wonder - I sure hope that lump in Andrew's armpit turns out to be nothing. You've got so much on your plate already. I hope that your Mom continues to do well. Hugs!

Twin - I'm sorry that your stomach is at it again. Maddie is just having a moment. She will be OK and you will too. I hope that your day at work is OK. Support and hugs headed your way.

Time to hit the eject button and get moving. It is cooler here today. I want to clean out another lily bed while the humidity is low. Shout out to Bear! I will check back later!

Thanks Leo and Fantod. She definitely knows how to throw fits and she already thinks I don't know anything. She's only 8! I just have sassy girls and I've been told since Maddie was in preschool that she would be an actress when she grows up. (storyteller, preacher, doesn't know when to stop talking, and drama) I agree with their statement but the cuteness isn't always there. :-) I do love hearing her preach though, she is seriously good and can repeat the whole sermon, of course she waits until we get home so she can stand and pace the floor while doing it. haha

Fantod, Enjoy the cooler weather while you get some yard work done. I want to go see a movie over the weekend, but not sure if that will happen. I'm glad you got out yesterday. Sending you lots of support as I'm sure you will need it after doing the yard work. Hugs

Aloha, everyone.

Leo, I'm confused. What does an itchy ankle have to do with a heart murmur? Either way I hope they gave you something to help the itch and there's nothing serious going on with your heart. Glad Mr. Leo is cool as a cucumber.

Wonder, I had a cyst like that when I was kid. Is it painful? They surgically removed mine and life resumed. Actually, I remember walking into urgent care and and *telling* them to remove it lol. The doctors were shocked, they said they could drain it or put me on antibiotics and see how that goes. I said no cut it out. Their jaws were on the floor. I hope what he's got is no big deal.

Twins, I'm so sorry your gut is back to its thing again. I hate it when I think I've discovered a fix and then "wham" the misery returns. It's so frustrating! Your GI doc, rheumy and neuro should do a conference call and collaborate on your issues. I hope Maddie gives you a hug when she comes home.

Fantod, I envy the low humidity you have. Good luck with the lily bed and I hope you feel OK afterwards. My back always kills me after pulling weeds.

I hope I can get through living here for a year. I can't get used to the high amounts of moisture. I threw out another pair of moldy shoes today. Soon I'll have nothing left but a couple pairs of sandals and my rubber boots lol. Hubby picked up a bigger dehumidifier for the walk-in closet yesterday. It dried my damp clothes up in a jiffy :).

The walk-in closet has now become more of a storage room. It's so cluttered in there I can hardly open my wardrobe / drawers. We have to do something about that.

I have horse therapy today. I am excited but at the same time anxious because the Old Testament class has so much reading material to cover, any time away from the books causes me to fall behind.

Plus my gut has been so cranky lately, I hope I can make it out of the house. I pulled my back a few days ago and the pain is still hanging around... knees and feet, too. Tomorrow hubby and I hope to dip in a waterfall around here somewhere.

Morning ladies and Kel. I slept 10 hours last night. Sheer exhaustion took over. I have been having terrible fibro fog the past few days and yesterday was the worst it has ever been.
Leo I have Superventricular Tach and I feel it often. Sometimes it is a light flutter like a butterfly and other times it is like a hammer trying to come out of my chest. I know the fear that comes with it well. I say try not to panic until you know what it is. I know that is hard but stressing out about it is not going to help. Hugs and prayers.
Wonder I am praying that the lump your hubby has is just a water filled cyst. You already have too much to deal with. I hope your cleaning moms house and dealing with all that follows goes easy on you today.
Twins I am sure Maddie is just adjusting to school and maybe trying to show independence. It is always hard on our hearts when our children show displeasure with us. I hope you have a good day.
Fantod I hope the cooler weather is a blessing. I would have loved to go see that movie. Anything with history to it and I am hooked.
I am not sure when or if my housekeeper will be here today or maybe tomorrow. She teaches and wasn't sure what her schedule looked like. She was supposed to call me and let me know but didn't. It is the first week of school so I understand how hectic things are.
It is cloudy and cooler today but the temps will be going up through the holiday weekend and next week. I am slowly working on my bedroom shelves but it is slow going. I started decorating my shelves on my head board yesterday to give it personality.
I hope all who follow have a great day and all those on here.

Leo, I've had a slight murmur on and off for most of my life. A lot of the time they're completely benign. I got an echo this spring because a doctor I saw for a muscle spasm heard it after it sort of went away for a few years. My heart is fine, they just check out of an abundance of caution. They can come and go so it may have been there for a while. Especially if you don't have symptoms, I wouldn't worry. And regardless of what this is, it's nothing you're doing "wrong". I've also seen a lot of animals with murmurs who get echoes, and don't need treatment for any disease.

Sorry to not reply to everyone, I had a long run this morning in the last day of our heat wave/humidity. It went well but very taxing physically and mentally. I'm reading and thinking of all of you

Changed my plans for the day. Instead of cleaning out the lily bed, I decided to mop the family room and clean the deck up. Using my nemesis the leaf blower. So far, there have been no mishaps. I also made a batch of brownies. I'm just about finished for the day in more ways than one.....

Hi Everyone! Just wanted to stop by and say hello to everyone. I am still around and thinking of you guys. Just been in a lot of pain and fatigue all over and several doctors appointments. I start water aerobics in a week. Hoping to try and get some relief.... Nothing else seems to work. Hoping that you guys have a great day!

Hi Pam - Nice to see you! I sure hope that you are not going to be in a regular water aerobics class. Fibro folks can’t tolerate that level of intensity. If you are, just do what you can not what the class instructor expects. Or, get out of that class and find one specifically for arthritic people. I hope the class helps you!

Hugs all around, I'm about to leave for my girls karate class.

Fantod, I'm heading over after karate to grab some brownies. :-)

Pam, I was wondering about you, praying for some relief.

Blue, your cottage sounds like major roughing it to me. I couldn't do it. Hang in there. And I talked to Maddie on the phone and she said she had a great day and didn't even mention this morning so I didn't either. Kids!

Autumn, I hope the housekeeper gets there soon to give you some help. Out temps are going up for the Holiday weekend too. I'm thinking fun indoor activities and crafts.

Leo, maybe it's a flow-through murmur. Only a NP picked that one up on me, all docs ignored it. Flow-through meaning that it murmurs from the large volume of blood, no valve pathology. NP's do a ton of physical exams and so, maybe that's why they picked it up, Their training is to document all Hope that's what she picked up.


I read a behavioral study from the Netherlands did comparisons of fibromites, v. normals on goal conflicts in daily life. Almost got mad, as the study didn't pick up on mod-severely affected like me (lots of fatigue). When your day ends at noon or 2pm, do you suppose one might have goal conflicts? Huh?

Take care of yourselves. Speak gently and nicely to yourselves at all times and breathe.

Hugs and Hi everyone

Leo , I responded to your other thread .

Wonder, get your Hubby and his armpit to the Dr. Better safe than sorry.

Autumn , I envy your 10 hours of sleep. I want/need that.

That is all I got. I was at the GI Dr office for 2 hours this afternoon and I am toast. Walked out of there needing an ultrasound of my gallbladder in the near future. It is always something.

Also, now I want a freaking brownie . : )

Low pain levels and good sleep wishes for all.