Still feeling this way and i dont know why and i do not like it :(

Try and just get through each moment and pat yourself on the back for making it through.

I’m sorry you are struggling. Call your therapist if you just can’t take feeling this way. Treat yourself well.

Sorry to hear that you are having a hard time with PTSD and a lot of pain. I can relate because I have chronic back pain and issues with my neck sometimes. Do you have any hobbies to distract yourself? I find that being creative is helpful for me. Taking pictures is a way to capture memories even if just around the house. Some people like to journal because they can express their feelings and emotions. This is something I want to start doing. Volunteering has also helped me get involved with organizations and help others and meet new people. Any type of exercising can also help with trauma and pain. I hope you can find ways to cope with your situation.
Thinking and praying for you.

Aww.... hang in there Angela. Any relaxing / happy things you can do? A friend or family member come over for a movie, popcorn and cocoa? Board games? I hope you feel better soon. Saying a quick prayer.... hugs

Thank you all, i had the Dr at 3 ran a couple errands with dad before and after, im back on carafate for my ulcer to coat my stomach which stops meds including psych meds from absorbing ugh at least one week then IF i feel i can i can wean down slowly its 4 times a day at least a week. Blood pressure has her VERY concerned it was 158/110 they rechecked 45 mins later still around the same but not showing any symptoms. Am to check it at home daily and keep track a few times a day and then recheck there in a week. Only symptom is short of breath BUT i have asthma so could be that she said. Keep an eye on myself watching out if i get chest pain etc with it. I am being sent to a migraine specialist she sent the referral, and for a gynecologist because she said we HAVE to figure out why i dont get periods i haven't had one in almost 2 months now i just had 2 days of spotting and a week of cramping is all. She said there is only one female at the clinic its one i saw 13 years ago and shes a PA but she said she knows there's no way i will let a man do a yearly on me so she is telling them i HAVE to see her. She said be warned im suppose to have a yearly done its been 3 years they will do it on first visit and she said they WILL make you get a vaginal ultrasound cuz of my PCOS and my aunt died at 35 of ovarian cancer. Just what my PTSD needed :( I also went to church tonight and helped mom in the nursery and you can hear the sermon in there first time in about a year and half since i have gone. Pastor said he had to triple look if it was me LOL! He tried to get me to go upstairs but i wanted to stay with mom. I am exhausted finally ate dinner half hour ago at 930pm ugh.

That is great that you went to church and volunteered to help out in the nursery. Church sermons can offer a lot of comfort and support and volunteering is a great way to help others and meet new people. It is also good that you are finding a doctor to help you with your physical symptoms.