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6 days now off the cymbalta....
did i mention my doc said to go backwards and take it again?? take the lowest dosage every other day for a week, then skip 2 days for a week, then 3, and so on?
but i've grown to hate this med so much, i'd rather NOT put any of those pills in my mouth ever again.
i still feel like SHIT... shit isn't even the right word to describe it. hmmm... maybe a "train wreck survivor whose brain and eyes keep getting electrocuted" better describes it.
i asked Matthew to take me down town yesterday when someone called (who owes me money) and said they got paid and will pay me back $300. i couldn't drive at all, still can't. not with this wobbling zapping pounding feeling, nope. not a safe driver.
so a grabbed my ear plugs and black shades and headed out the door to collect my money (had to cuz she was leavin the island)....
of course, we ended up arguing on the way down, what's new, right? and the whole entire bitch in me comes out.... not a mean streak, the WHOLE thing.
for the last how many days i've been TRYIN to tell this thick headed man who supposedly loves me that this is THE WORST physical torment i've ever felt in my life, but somehow he doesn't get it and still has the nerve to give me rotten attitude. i flipped the F--- out!!! tired of him hurting my head with his yelling, tired of the attitude, tired of the fact that every time i feel like total shit i have to BEG for him to be nice to me! WTF!!!!!
i pushed my ear plugs in harder and lost it, started screaming my fuckin head off at the top of my lungs at him point blank in his face. told him it's bad enough i have to deal with this nightmare shit from cymbalta, i DO NOT have the patients to put up with HIS SHIT TOO!!!!!
that if i can't get rid of ONE of the problems in my life then i'll have to get rid of the other, meaning i was ABOUT to give in and BUY him a plane ticket on credit and ship him back to his mama in Texas! if you cant be something good in my life then get out.
shape up or ship out, motha fucka!!! then i got quiet and let it sink in to his little and lacking brain. later on he came up to me and apologizes "for being bad bf" and that he hasn't been good to me and so on. but by that point i stopped caring. i told him i just want my peace and quiet and sanity, so pick one of the options; stay n be good, or get the fukk out. we got couples counseling coming up on the 19th, and if i can't make it till then, then he's goin home back to momma.
a human being can only take so much.
so where's the mad scientist that can cure this shit? or at least come up with an "anti-miserable serum"? cuz i could really use some right now.
did i mention my doc said to go backwards and take it again?? take the lowest dosage every other day for a week, then skip 2 days for a week, then 3, and so on?
but i've grown to hate this med so much, i'd rather NOT put any of those pills in my mouth ever again.
i still feel like SHIT... shit isn't even the right word to describe it. hmmm... maybe a "train wreck survivor whose brain and eyes keep getting electrocuted" better describes it.
i asked Matthew to take me down town yesterday when someone called (who owes me money) and said they got paid and will pay me back $300. i couldn't drive at all, still can't. not with this wobbling zapping pounding feeling, nope. not a safe driver.
so a grabbed my ear plugs and black shades and headed out the door to collect my money (had to cuz she was leavin the island)....
of course, we ended up arguing on the way down, what's new, right? and the whole entire bitch in me comes out.... not a mean streak, the WHOLE thing.
for the last how many days i've been TRYIN to tell this thick headed man who supposedly loves me that this is THE WORST physical torment i've ever felt in my life, but somehow he doesn't get it and still has the nerve to give me rotten attitude. i flipped the F--- out!!! tired of him hurting my head with his yelling, tired of the attitude, tired of the fact that every time i feel like total shit i have to BEG for him to be nice to me! WTF!!!!!
i pushed my ear plugs in harder and lost it, started screaming my fuckin head off at the top of my lungs at him point blank in his face. told him it's bad enough i have to deal with this nightmare shit from cymbalta, i DO NOT have the patients to put up with HIS SHIT TOO!!!!!
that if i can't get rid of ONE of the problems in my life then i'll have to get rid of the other, meaning i was ABOUT to give in and BUY him a plane ticket on credit and ship him back to his mama in Texas! if you cant be something good in my life then get out.
shape up or ship out, motha fucka!!! then i got quiet and let it sink in to his little and lacking brain. later on he came up to me and apologizes "for being bad bf" and that he hasn't been good to me and so on. but by that point i stopped caring. i told him i just want my peace and quiet and sanity, so pick one of the options; stay n be good, or get the fukk out. we got couples counseling coming up on the 19th, and if i can't make it till then, then he's goin home back to momma.
a human being can only take so much.
so where's the mad scientist that can cure this shit? or at least come up with an "anti-miserable serum"? cuz i could really use some right now.
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My 6mo twin DD's are EBF and just started rice cereal on the first. Everything has been going fine except this morning one of them had a diaper rash (lots of redness around her anus). I read this as one of the signs of an allergy. BUT I did just buy a different brand diaper yesterday (which they have used randomly before w/no issues). Do you think its the cereal or the diaper? Im ready to start...
I really hope this Cymbalta nightmare is over for you soon.
Sherry
If I didn't isolate myself, my family avoided me. LOL I can joke about it now but it was such an awful situation at the time. I honestly think we're going to need rehab centers for FM'ers getting off these meds with their side effects.
It's a good idea to not make life altering decisions while you're so ill. You may or may not regret them but to be safe, put them off until you're feeling better.
And you ARE going to feel better - soon. I promise. Just hold on.
Gentle hugs... (Hugs always make me feel better, even if its cyber...)
SHE WROTE ME BACK SAYING I WAS CRITZING HER & SHE DIDN'T WANT MY OPIONION UNLESS SHE ASK FOR IT! SHE DID! & SHE IS ALSO PISSED THAT I'M GETING TREATMENT FROM A GOOD DOC & HOUSE KEEPING! SHE THRUTHAT IN MY FACE
ANYWAY , I WAS FEELING LIKE A PRISINOR IN MY OWN HOME IN SALAREY! I DON'T SEEOR TALK TO A HUMAN FOR DAYS! & THEN I'M PAYING THEM!
I'M THINKING AFTER THIS & NOW READING YOUR POST I'M SO GLAD I'M ALONE W/MY CAT & DOG!
I DID NOT TITRATE OFF CYMBOLTA= I QUIT COLD TURKEY! iT MADE ME SO SICK AFTER TRYING IT THREE TIMES FOR 3M EA TIME! I DIDN'T WANT IT IN MY BODY AGAIN!
BUT AGAIN I HAD THE FENTAYL PATCH, NORCO , VALUIM & ALSO USED BENIDRYL COLD/FLU.. PLUS I HAD GONE TO DENTIST & SHE PUT ME ON ANTI/VIRAL CAUSE I ALWAYS BREAK OUT AFTER VISIT! THAT MAY HAVE HELPT!
I'M FEELING LIKE SHIT NOW =I THINK IT MIGHT JUST BE THE "FIBRO" FLARED FROM PUTTING YOUR BODY THRU SO MUCH W/ALL YOUR SELF OBSORED FRIENDS= THAT SEEMS TO GET YOU TO HELP THEM & WERE ARE THEY NOW FOR YOU!
SORRY IF THAT IS HARESS, BUT YOU ARE SUCH A GOOD PERSON =ALWAYS LENDING MONEY(I'M SURE YOU REALLY DON'THAVE TOI BE JUST HANDING OUT), YOUR TRUCK & YOU!!!!
PLEASE THINK OF YOURSELF FIRST!
WHY DO YOU HAVE TO BUY HIM A TICKET CAN'T HIS MOTHER HELP=HE DOESN'T GET A PENSION FROM GOV!
SENDING YOU HUGS!
& HEALING PRAYERS & ANGELS TO LIFT YOU UP & HELP YOU DEAL W/ALL THIS STRESS, & GUIDE YOU & THOSE AROUND YOU!
OXO
PAULA
oh man.... i went to the VA today. got some valium but it has NO refills on it! grrmph! what the hell... i told her that valium seems to be only the help that workds for me.... whatever. if i run out i'll be SURE to call her again.
misunshine, i was goin to buy it for him to get him out of my hair. yes, his momma would probably buy it before letting ME do it. LMAO. he does get some pension from the VA like i do, but not even close to how much i get.
btw, he just got dx w/ arthritis of the spine today. he's getting put on arthritis meds just like me and in fact the same exact one as me. poor thing. funny how when you treat someone in pain like shit, you end up getting it your self TOO!!! funny how life works that way. what's the saying? "what goes around, comes around??" --yeah....
poor thing, DDD is nothing good, that shit hurts! but now all of a sudden he's like so nice to me and wants to know everything i've done to treat mine, and so on. yeah, now that you are hurting too and feel some nasty pain you wanna be nice about it. what's up with that, huh?!
well.... i'm gonna eat some dinner, take a big fat muscle relaxer.... and then if i feel up to it, make some home made MANGO CHEESECAKE! YUM!!!
i've been in a better mood today since goin to the VA. so i've calmed down-- FOR NOW. he he....
thanks ya'll for all the support. as always, y'all ROCK! :)
Perhaps bf was in pain all along. Pain makes me bitchy, maybe it makes him a jerk.
Hang in there - I know you're going to do the right thing for you - you just need to figure out once and for all what that is. I suspect you already know, but it takes some time for the mind to accept when the emotions are running high.
Talking to family and my bf didnt always help despite their best intentions... i never felt understood.. was angry and moody and would have ripped the heads off a few dolls....(i still have some days like that)
Anyways.. the calming breathing did help...
Hope u find your way to find ur inner peace...
Lots of love and hugs....
oo.. sometimes I would just scream OUT LOOOOUD
You're right....stress from your boyfriend is not a good thing for you right now. I hope he cooperates and starts treating you better.
Take care! Hugs!
last night we had it out again. it started because i was in a good mood and wanted some "attention" and he somehow took it as me berating him or putting him down. i have no idea why he does this, every fuckin time i try to a nice conversation with him or get close, he takes it as me giving him shit. i'm so lost. so of course i just flipped the fuck out on him again. i am so done with this. DONE.
i woke up so strung out this morning, i'm shaking on and off and i feel like screaming and crying.
never made the cheesecake last night cuz i felt my head start to pound more again. i was even wearing my black shades AT NIGHT!
i don't know what to do... don't know what to do.... i'm so frazzled.... all i want is peace... PEACE N FUKKIN QUIET!!!! but all i get is his fuckin attitude. hawww man..... i'm gonna fuckin lose it....
i was a bit of a violent person when i was a teen.... somehow i feel that nasty urge again creepin up inside me. the urge where my twisted reasoning believes that beating the shit out of people is the only solution....
if this dude shoves attitude my way ONE more time, please someone hold me back..... cuz i'm afraid i'll end up ripping his fuckkin jaw off and shoving it up his ass!!!! then one of you nice ladies here will have to come bail me out of jail! who's up for it? anyone???
I am so really sorry, you have to go through any of this. Wow coming of this stuff sure sounds like pure torture.
I think you need some time away from your other halve right now. You need the peace and quite as you so elegantly stated. lmao again. lol So you can get through this really tough time, all this extra drama, even though I know, it may not be his fault, but still its really not doing you any good, and by that it's not doing him any good ether.
I hope you find a good resolution, where you don't end up in a bad place. seriously my friend. Listen to your anger it is telling you loud and clear, you need some time with others that will help you, be calm in the face of all that your going through, which might help you more then you would know.
Well only my humble opinion, thanks for keep us informed on how your doing through this nasty stuff.
Sending you some, calm peaceful thoughts.
Gentle hugs, Sherrall