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Jerrysgirl
Jerrysgirl
i just want to know if anyone else has been through this before, now i am not depressed, and i really am not angry at anyone in general, but i am so i don't know what to call it, i need to be locked up in a room with no contact with anyone, my hubby and little girl does not bother me but everyone else just irratates the heck, out of me, i do not want to hear the drama, i don't want to hear what i should do, i don't want to go to the family reunion, i don't want to talk to anyone, i don't want to do anything, i just want to be left alone, now i mean if something doesn't give i am going to hurt somebody, i really don't care who, someday someone is going to say hi, or good morning to me in just the wrong tone, and i will be one of those cases of temporary insanity, i take my depression pills, i take my anxiety pills i try to smile and be nice, but i am at my limit.
does anyone else experience this or is it only me, and if you do, what do you do to get over it, please help me before i strangle someone, now in reality i would never hurt anyone, but i just want to be left alone,
WhiteDolphin
WhiteDolphin
I think this is part of your grieving process... grieving the loss of the life you once had and the life you thought you would have in the future...and loss of your health.
deleted_user
deleted_user
oh sweetie i feel u it's crazy when i have a really bad day and i'm like in the grog store or somewhere else i usually get oh u look sooo gd have u lost weight etc and i just like want to smack them it's like i want to say ya outside i don't look llike i'm ill but it's the inside thats bad i also have polycycstic kidney diease so i keep tellin' my friend i'm goin to take a pic of kidneys with my htc snap and when they say that i'm goin to show them and walk away. usually i get wow u look gd u sure ur disabled. stupid ppl
deleted_user
deleted_user
speakin' of husband mine of almost 30 yrs surprized the hell outa me a few days ago i was havin' him rub lotion on my thights to toes anyway it started hurtin' and i started to cry he said did i do it to hard and i no sweetie it just hurts so then he asked y are u crying i said y don't u just divorce me and find someone who isn't in this much pain and etc and he didn't even stop to think he said so where would go and i said u can anywhere u want and as he was walkin' out he touched my leg and said but what abt the vows i said and i said vows and he said for better or worse in sickness and health omg i cried like a little bitch and then he kissed my tears away and said what kind of men would i be if i left....
mtnfibroguy
mtnfibroguy
I think White Dolphin has it right. Also I would add that some meds can cause irritability, sometimes severe. I know it does for me.

Nascardale...that is really sweet, in these days people are not like that much anymore, you have a good guy it sounds.
deleted_user
deleted_user
I get the same way at times. Some holidays are not a treat for me as it means more interaction with people on off time from work. I get to the point that I just want silence, lots and lots of silence. I don't want music on that I love, people talking, or even the sound of the fans going. Some days the birds chripin outside are just too much for me. I just want to be left alone in silence. I guess pain is so stimulating (not in a good way) to my mind,body and spirit so much that I am worn out for anything else.
Jerrysgirl
Jerrysgirl
thank you guys, it makes me feel better that i am not the only one.
fibrolizzy
fibrolizzy
I definitely feel that way at times, and I'm the same way about craving quiet. My husband retired in Jan., and he's got the TV going practically non-stop all day, unless he's out doing something. I used to love having the quiet house to myself. I just really like to be by myself, doing my devotions, getting on the computer, whatever.....as long as it's QUIET!

I also agree that some meds can make you irritable. You might check the side effects.

Take care, Elizabeth
LeoX3
LeoX3
Jerry, it's normal with any chronic illness. Shoulda seen me after my epilepsy dx. Raving snarl-monster from the deeps.

Hugs,
Leo
deleted_user
deleted_user
Oh, honey.....I've been there done that a million times. I have an avatar that says "I don't want to be alone, but I HAVE to." Days like that I just go to my room and stay there until I have a been attitude. Just this last weekend, I just snapped and went off on my son and hubby for a minor little thing. I got up, apologized and told them it was the fibro speaking and not me and went to my room.

That is one of the reasons I feel it's important for us to create a "sanctuary" for ourselves. Mine is my room.....over the years, I have added to it and now it's pretty complete. TV/DVD/CD players, mini-fridge w/ freezer, adjustable bed, book shelves with all my favorite books, a rocking chair, a garden outside my (outside) bedroom door with a hammock swing, and my laptop.. In fact I can shut my whole corner of the house off from the rest, including my dressing room and bathroom. And there are a lot of times that is where I stay because I am just not fit company for any one.
deleted_user
deleted_user
I actually DID punch someone in the nose! Broke it! It felt goooooooood!!!!! :D Just saying...... (It was my brother in law and he was always picking on me. He caught me on a very bad day) lol! String up a punching bag in your garage or something...it's what I ended up doing. It works! Gets the frustration and the anger out. ANd it's good exercize to boot! :D
deleted_user
deleted_user
It is normal to feel that way when you are grieving the loss of your "old" self before fibro, like White Dolphin says. Sometimes I get so frustrated I get like that. If you ever feel frustrated and somewhat out of control, just go on your computer and we are here for you.
This is a wonderful support group, we understand what you feel, it is normal to feel frustrated and wanting to be alone at times.
You have all of us to support you, just message me if you need to vent; I will be there for you, hon.
Take care and please let us help you if you want.
Love and gentle hugs,
MaryKathryn
deleted_user
deleted_user
Hi, know just how you feel but dont go smacking anyone cause you know its going to hurt you more the next day!
Screamings good.... find yourself a place and just go for it, as loud as you can... youll probably end up laughing at yourself, I do!
Hope you feel better soon.
Sally. x
inkprincess73
inkprincess73
Maybe you do just need to be left alone. I know I do. Sometimes I just go in my room, "mom's off duty." Take some time everyday to be alone if that is your need. Or if you need to take a couple of days off, do it!! Our illness takes away many things. We have to compensate so we can function.

Good luck, and try not to punch anyone. Prison is not comfortable!!

Ink
deleted_user
deleted_user
After nearly 4 years of griping about the people who I've lost the company and support from, they are slowly coming back into my life.
To my surprise, i find I no longer know how to be around them..Even on the phone.
My husband is a happy hermit.I resented this fact most of our marriage (19 years this month). I was forever trying to pry him out to go places..Now I am so grateful to be learning the way of life he has treasured.
My home is my castle.I am the queen, he the king. We do what we want, when we want. And how we want. Our visitors are few and far between. And we are happy.
I still bark but I don't bite..well, not often..and not TOO hard..mostly.
deleted_user
deleted_user
You Are Not Alone !!!!
Anger, Depression, Anxiety all a Big part of Chronic Pain...
I am working on this myself right now....I have so Much Anger, Sometimes I think I'm gonna explode !!!! Sometimes I yell at the kids too much and then the guilt sets in...Then more anger !!!
I know for me its because of a few things, Doctors that are Idiots, Not being able to live the way I used to...Thinking my Family would be better off w/o me, Being sick & Tired of Being sick & Tired !!!
I try to find joy in the little things,.. I Love TV, I dont have to Think about anything...I love Gardening, It doesnt piss me off.lol...I would also talk to you Dr. your meds might need to be changed..I take Celexa & Love it !!
Take care of you Forget the Rest !!!