I have always had a strained, awful relationship with my narcissistic mom. She passed away last year. I've always wondered about my bio dad. My mom told me a name and when I was 19 I went to his house and talked to him. He wasnt rude, he simply said "There's no way I could be your dad, I only went out with your mom once."
My moms friends say he was the only one she dated when she got pregnant, and I knew a guy who dated one of his daughters from a marriage years after I was born. My friend said I have the same laugh, mannerisms and looks as the girl who would be my half sister.
Since my mom passed I have this need to just know for sure. I dont expect him to want to be a dad now, as I'm 37, and he made his point when I met him all those years ago. But I feel like I deserve to know for sure.
At this point in my life I dont really care if he wants to be a part of my life or not. But I would love to have some sort of relationship with his other children, as they would be my half siblings. Should I pursue this? I've written him a letter telling him I dont want anything from him, but I have requested a dna test, that I would pay for. I honestly expect the letter to be ignored. Should I still try to get ahold of my half siblings? I want to so bad, but I'm scared silly! Any advice would be greatly appriciated!