Has I continue to wait for my addicts return ,,, which by the way is going on 6 weeks,,, I find myself wanting to clean,,, like the smell of lavender and bleach has become a deffinet need,,, although I look at this as perhaps crazy,,, I guess it's better then just covering up in bed and doing nothing,,,must say,,, my family loves it,, although when they come in the door they are not sure what they are walking into,,, re-arrange furniture has become my addiction,,, and yes I do have other options also to full up my empty thoughts of my addict,, I work ( 6 days), a lively 6 year old,, that really is my light of my dark moments,,, three other active teenagers,,, and my best friend ( my husband), that knows when I'm having my silent breakdown ,, usually makes a bubble bath,, and of course I'm very active in my support group,,, also very good friend of mine is going through a horrific disease,, Lou Gehrig disease,, and if course helping with a fundraiser for her,,,,my point here,,,, it's not about the storm ( I miss my daughter ,, more then words can express) but the ability to dance in the rain,,,,, never give up hope,,, ( I will continue,, to look out the window, for her everyday,, and stand waiting with open arms for her return),, my anger has been redirected,, my saddness turned into finding the beauty that surrounds us,,,,,

Live like its your last day
Laugh until your belly hurts
Love like its your first time

Hope is the faith that makes us believe that tomorrow will happen

Keep k,, in your prayers