Families & Friends Affected By Suicide Support Group
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Hi all I'm new to this an am still working out how to use so were to start on the 13/11/2016 my fiance committed suicide (hung himself) I wasn't allowed to go to funeral as apparently its my fault all I ever done was help an support him we were together nearly 4 yrs an friends a year before that an we have a baby together she was 17 months at the time of his death n I attempted in going to funeral but they wouldn't let me through the front door as it was at his grandparents house they tryed grabbing baby an taking her into see him I said no as she was to young to understand why daddy can't hold her n give her love... Does this make me a monster??? I spend pretty much all day everyday hating an blaming myself as everyone else does i lost all my friends once this happened all support so its just me n my girl who is just over 2 years now I struggle to get out of bed an to motivate my self to do the basic everyday life routines I know I shouldn't blame myself but I can't help but to blame myself an with them not letting me see him at the funeral an say goodbye I feel as if my closure an grief was held back from taking its natural course I've been down the path of hell (drugs, alcohol,attempt in suicide depression) I feel as I'm losing my mind an I'm only 19 then to find out in February I didn't realise that I was pregnant with our son due to me not looking after my self I lost him so I must be a monster..... I can't do anything right... I hate feeling this way an just want the pain to end... Can't take antidepressants as of no self control an I don't like speaking to counselors have trust issues so I thought I'd give online groups ago please any advice would be appreciated just need some friends an support
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I was recently separated from my wife of 33 years and it's complicated. Anyway I rented a room about 15 minutes away and I see my kids about once a week. I see the people who own the house I live in once in a while but other than that I stay in my room where I do my cooking, wash dishes in the shower, read, color, and sleep. I get out at least once a day. I grocery shop and I attend 2 meetings...
I know this is easier said then done but you really need to let go of all that guilt. Then you need to forgive yourself for holding on to that guilt for so long. Guilt comes from past judgments.
There is a prayer that I say that helps me let go of guilt, and I would like to share it with you.
"Take this from me and look upon it, judging it for me
Let me not see it as a sign of sin and death, nor use it for destruction.
Teach me how not to make it as an obstacle to peace but let YOU use it for me to facilitate it's coming.
God Bless
Again, it's not your fault. You didn't create the issues within him. You didn't have it in your power to fix the issues within him.
It was definitely wrong of the family to not let you into the funeral. At your daughter's age, probably best that she wasn't in there at all. (Kids pick up on the emotions around them, it probably would have been traumatic.)
Oftentimes hospitals around you will have grief groups. You can also look to churches or reach out to social services in your area.
Gentle hugs, it's a lot to process through...give yourself time, but don't put off getting help in the thought that it will all just go away.
Patti
You need to understand that when you are on the wrong path, people are only going to tolerate so much before they don't want to know you. It's the bad choices you make not you as a human being they are rejecting. Those are two separate things, even though people get them confused when they are stress out and upset with you. If they just keep right on being nice and helpful while you are on the road to destruction, that's called enabling you.
If you continue to allow drugs to rule your life, you are always going to have similar problems. It kind of comes with the endless cycle drug addiction and depression. Everyone deserves to be happy, including you.
Think about it this way. Every human being on earth is destined to have a certain amount of pain and misery in their lives. That part is inevitable, cause it's just part of being human. You got your share out of the way early in life. Pull yourself together, get into treatment and find the personal happiness you and your young daughter deserve.