I've been struggling with eating disorders since I was 12. I was always the fat girl in school that people picked on. So I learned to throw up my food, starve myself, over exercise, use laxatives. This would be an ongoing thing till my 20s. I didn't realize that the real issue was my constant bingeing which was leading me to these actions because i was gaining weight and felt so disgusted with myself. I dont purge anymore my issue is bingeing. Its like I cant stop and I feel like I'm ruining myself and my body which leads to more shame and more saddness which means more bingeing. I miss feeling pretty and I really am just afraid I dont want to kill myself by something happening from all this unhealthy eating. I just miss feeling beautiful.
Hello, I hope someone reads this, I could really use the help. I have been married for 11 years to my faithful, wonderful, beautiful wife. Through that time I stuggled with an unmedicated bipolar disorder, and would self medicate with illegal substances. Safe to say I spent 8 years cheating on this woman with any chance I got. I identify as a straight man, but I cheated with men too. Like I said...