Eating Disorders Support Group
Eating disorders are marked by an obsessive need to control the intake and/or purging of food. This community is dedicated to those struggling on the road to recovery. Join to discuss your experience with others and find support. Get advice, ask questions, and meet others who are going through similar struggles.
My ED is kicking me in the ass. I feel like I have no strength to fight back. I want to curl up in a ball and let it have at me.
I'm sick of hearing people say "why don't you just eat" or "why don't you just not make yoruself throw up" or "why don't you getrid of your scale" or "why don't you stop comparing yourself."
Believe me, if I knew WHY, I don't think I'd be sitting in treatment for the second time, feeling like a failure, feeling lost and confused without any goals or hope.
Yes. This is ED talking. But it sounds so much better than my own voice. It's stronger and I'm weak.
I have to walk into treatment in another hour and face the music of my restricting and purging yesterday whileat treatment and then my binging at home in the evening. I promised the therapist I'd talk about it. And I don't, she'll call me out on it. I'm afraid they'll kick me out of the program, and right now, it's the only thing I have.
Thanks for letting me just get this out. Maybe it will make today a little easier.
I'm sick of hearing people say "why don't you just eat" or "why don't you just not make yoruself throw up" or "why don't you getrid of your scale" or "why don't you stop comparing yourself."
Believe me, if I knew WHY, I don't think I'd be sitting in treatment for the second time, feeling like a failure, feeling lost and confused without any goals or hope.
Yes. This is ED talking. But it sounds so much better than my own voice. It's stronger and I'm weak.
I have to walk into treatment in another hour and face the music of my restricting and purging yesterday whileat treatment and then my binging at home in the evening. I promised the therapist I'd talk about it. And I don't, she'll call me out on it. I'm afraid they'll kick me out of the program, and right now, it's the only thing I have.
Thanks for letting me just get this out. Maybe it will make today a little easier.
Not easily, but you can do it all the same. Theres always gonna be times like this before you recover, when you feel like ED has all the control, but it only does if you give it that.
See therapy as your first step to taking that control back!!
Good luck an remember you are stronger than ED an you Can beat it!!
We've all been through it.
xx