dont be afraid to gain weight. i am recovering from an eating disorder and i was scared to gain weight at first also but i realized it is almost impossible to maintain the same weight always. so my best advice for you is dont over work yourself with trying to stay this weight and dont over exercise because its not healthy just eat healthy and stay active and i promise it will be amazing.

I want to be 90 pounds though

No one on this board is going to support you being 90 pounds.
This is not a support group to help enable poor choices and habits - it's a forum to support and encourage RECOVERY. If you aren't at that point of your journey yet, that's fine, but please refrain from posting specific numbers (ie, weight) and attempting to garner positive feedback for a very obviously unhealthy goal.
We're here to help if you choose to reach out for it.
HUGS
Jen

I'm sorry. I'm new here. TBH I'm not really sure how this works. I've never been in a support group.

Welcome to the group.

Have you talked to anyone about how you feel? How you want to weight only 90 pounds? It's really not a healthy weight for anyone and I would hate for you to not get help now while you are still young. Please tell someone how you are feeling.

I'd rather not talk with anyone about it. I've talked to an online counselor and that's why I'm here

I am so sorry for how this torments you. :( I agree with everything both Jen and LuckyEmpath said. That is NOT a healthy goal and you deserve to take care of yourself. You are worthy of self-care and help. I am here for support.

Thanks everyone. It means a lot to me

Welcome. Hugs

I lost an "unhealthy amount in a day and a half