Eating Disorders Support Group
Eating disorders are marked by an obsessive need to control the intake and/or purging of food. This community is dedicated to those struggling on the road to recovery. Join to discuss your experience with others and find support. Get advice, ask questions, and meet others who are going through similar struggles.
EDNOS = Eating Disorder Not Otherwise Specified
Is what I got diagnosed with several years ago when I went to counseling for my ed... I have dealt with an ed for almost 20 years off and on...Things are really starting to get out of control again but it's like I'm not willing or ready for help with it at this point but at the same time I feel so alone in all this....Some people have found out that are close to me even though I tried so hard to hide it...I feel like such a failure that they know and that is all I can think about when I'm around them that they know and I just wished they didn't know about it..... Things are just really hard right now and just feel like shutting everyone out and pretending that everything is okay even when I know it's not...Dont' really know what to do at this point...but my mind keeps screaming all these bad thoughts over and over again.....
Is what I got diagnosed with several years ago when I went to counseling for my ed... I have dealt with an ed for almost 20 years off and on...Things are really starting to get out of control again but it's like I'm not willing or ready for help with it at this point but at the same time I feel so alone in all this....Some people have found out that are close to me even though I tried so hard to hide it...I feel like such a failure that they know and that is all I can think about when I'm around them that they know and I just wished they didn't know about it..... Things are just really hard right now and just feel like shutting everyone out and pretending that everything is okay even when I know it's not...Dont' really know what to do at this point...but my mind keeps screaming all these bad thoughts over and over again.....
deleted_user
Ive been where you are, and it sucks. You have to remember that it does not matter what anyone else things about your situation; you call the shots in your life. WHen you are ready for help you will get it. Of course sooner the better but you have the right to chose when where and how. What other people think about your struggle should not make you feel worse. It is hard for people to understand ED. ANd it is hard for them to know how to help, so keep that in mind when comments are made. Hang in there. THings will be ok. :)
vintagegurl84
Thank you...You are right...it will be on my terms of when and how I get help...but it doesn't make it any easier when I feel so alone in all this right now....and it's all I can do not to shut everyone out that is close to me....It really just sucks honestly...
chelle37
I'm sorry you're going through this, ED can definitely make a person feel isolated. Please know that you're not alone, there are lots of people here who will care and understand. I hope you can fight the urge to shut those close to you out. It's too much to handle on your own. Message me anytime if you'd like to chat.
vintagegurl84
Thanks so much...Just really feel like such a failure...just binged and purged....I hate myself for that but yet no one close to me undestands.... :(
chelle37
You're not a failure, an ed is a difficult thing to overcome. You binged and purged, but try not to let that define you. It's one less time you will have to binge and purge before you recover. Maybe that time of binging and purging has pushed you in some degree closer to seeking help. Maybe that time will help you want to quit pretending things are ok... Maybe that binge and purge will be one of your last.
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