Hello. As many of you know, I left for Remuda Ranch 9 weeks ago to get treatment for my anorexia and exercise compulsion. It was a long and difficult and wonderful and challenging and life-changing experience. This is a great, great program...if you are looking for treatment, check this place out. It is in Wickenburg, AZ. I was in inpatient treatment for 3 weeks and in residential treatment for 6 weeks. Once I got there I found out how sick I was. My potassium was 2.9 and my sodium was 30...both of which are dangerously low. I really embraced the program and committed myself to work the program and to not play any games. My life was on the line. I was able to regain about half of the amount of weight I needed to gain...I have a very high metabolism...and will be continuing in a partial hospitalization program in Tampa starting Monday. It is 5 days a week from 9 until 5. I will be there until I reach the low end of my target weight and maintain in that range for a period of time. Everything that I believed about food and nutrition and control and what my ED does for me was called into question. I now know that I cannot just follow a meal plan and curb my exercise in order to get better...I have to deal with the life issues that are keeping me trapped and needing to hold on to this vile disorder. I read so many good books on ED and OCD and DBT while I was there...if anyone wants any titles I would be happy to share. Right now I am enjoying being home for the week as I get my kids ready for summer, my 16-year-old off to study in Paris, my 14-year-old ready for a summer of community service in Costa Rica, and my 15-year-old son ready for a summer of video game making camp and some special needs summer programs. I am continuing my leave of absence from work until I have this fully under control. This is my last battle with anorexia. It is time to get well. If you have any questions, ask away. I am back to support all of you know and am grateful for the support that you have provided to me.