I am so sorry that you are struggling.

Reach out to the family that you don’t feel as close to, just a quick text to let people know you are thinking of them. You don’t have to share your troubles, (I know how vulnerable it can make someone feel) but it’s amazing how good letting someone know that you care about them can make YOU feel.

Thanks, OCDeity, I have done that, even help when I can. It does make me feel better for that moment. For me it’s hard, that I have all these “silent” mental issues that are, I guess, too difficult for people to deal with me over. And what really sucks is I need the people interaction to help me through some of this crap. (5years and counting since my brain surgery) Anxiety and depression is not all I got from it. My sensory system got amped up, my sense of self and flow of life Seriously got altered. But the depression and anxiety is ALL they see, so they just keep telling me to do the work on how to get over it, let it go etc...... leaves me feeling very alone in my head. Doctors around here say pretty much the same thing. If you can get rid of the anxiety and depression, maybe the other stuff will get better too. Well it’s the other stuff that is a major part of my anxiety and depression. As well as my emotionally u available husband.

Imlosingit - In time like this, what gives me hope is the Bible verse that says

Matthew 6:33

"But seek ye first the kingdom of God, and his righteousness; and all these things shall be added unto you."

Starting with prayer and Bible reading. I am going to have to do it (seek God's kingdom first) myself to solve my current problem of worry and fear. Hope you feel better soon and find support you need. (My husband had seven brain tumors removed - seven brain surgeries. I can see how you feel about having your brain surgery).

Ah yes, the “let it go” or “snap out of it” advice. I also wonder if those people would tell someone with a broken leg to “just walk it off”. Hang in there.

Imlosingit - Like so many as yourself, I deal with seemingly endless anxiety and depression after the loss of my wife two years ago. Advice is given to me from trusted sources that I value and from unsolicited self-righteous sources that only do harm. I suspect you have your share of both. I am a person of faith and feel comfortable in that perspective with you because your own words reach out from that same perspective. What more trusted source of strength has there ever been than the Bible?

Lavender C has given you hope through the words of Matthew 6:33 from among the hallowed words of Jesus as he addressed anxiety in The Sermon on the Mount . To those wise words I would include his following words from Matthew 6:34 that say "So do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will care for itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own." I fall back on those words each time I feel myself suffering under the weight of tomorrow's anxieties.

Lastly, I will quote what are for me among the most personally strengthening words spoken by Jesus in the entire Bible. In Matthew 27:46 in about the ninth hour of crucifixion while in unimaginable pain on the cross, Jesus cried out with a loud voice, "MY GOD, MY GOD, WHY HAVE YOU FORSAKEN ME?" While not intended as words of inspiration, they give me strength knowing that even Jesus, the most holy ever among us, could experience a moment of doubt. While my woes pale in comparison to what he faced, his cries help me recover from my moments of weakness as I reflect on his pain.

OCDeity, love the broken leg comment, I will keep that one in mined for when I need it.
Lavender and Happyparkers, thank you for thoughtful comments. I do have faith and a good relationship with God. Happyparker, your comment about Christ’s cry out to God, got me thinking in a different direction on that for me. Venting! I was so venting yesterday. I was venting very angrily to myself and the world before I came to the group here. Im thinking Christ was showing us that it’s ok to vent out your dark feelings, even if they, and you know, they aren’t realistic. Shout out the poison. Get it out so you can move forward with your life. So many people say you shouldn’t vent your crap out to the world, you have to have strength and over come that desire. Don’t show weakness. You find strength in your weakest times. God sent me back here to get these messages that I needed to hear. I haven’t been back to the groups in 2years. And yesterday I was feeling so bad, I yelled, yes yelled, at God to show me where to go to get help. And last night I suddenly felt the need to come back here. And I’m so glad I did. Thank you all for being here.