Depression Support Group
Depression is a real and debilitating condition that is often misunderstood by family and friends. Its meaning can range from a prolonged period of sadness to an actual mental illness with specific symptoms. Find and share experiences with others who are going through the same struggles.
I wish I was dead so badly, I have a pdoc appt for next monday, that's a week of torment away. I really don't know if I can hold out, or if I even should - the pdoc can't fix what is causing my pain - no pill can do that.
I want to die so fucking badly and haven't got the guts to off myself. It's hell. I gotta get up the guts - all there is too it
I want to die so fucking badly and haven't got the guts to off myself. It's hell. I gotta get up the guts - all there is too it
leeigh
I know that feeling but please try and hang on or if you really can't wait for the appointment call a hotline, go to hospital. You are loved by many here. I know this is of no comfort to you but it is true.
Juice
Please let your pdoc know how you're feeling. It's a huge risk to wait so long, and none of us could bear to lose you. I know so well how you want to escape. The ocean is on my doorstep and I could just walk out into it, but I know my boys would hate me for ever. But it's hurting me so much not to do it.You have people who would miss you, and not just people here. You deserve a happy life, a GOOD life, and it can still happen. THAT'S what matters! It is never too late for happily ever after, no matter how hopeless you feel. Believe me, I have been where you stand, and right now I'm not so far away, but I know that we deserve a future and we deserve to have some level of contentment. Please wait a little longer my friend.
chelle37
I don't know what is causing your pain, but I do hope you can hold on. Is it possible that the pdoc could get you in sooner if he knows how difficult things are right now? I hope instead of getting the guts to off yourself you can put that energy into getting help, would you be willing to go to the hospital?
CrazyCanuk
I understand that feeling only all to well. I couldn't do it. Kind of sounds like you are in the same boat. Would like to but cannot do it. I found it hard to find some relief until I met a person who talked me into to keeping a gratitude journal. Each day I write one or 2 things I am grateful for. Somedays I have to really work for a few little things such as I got out of bed etc. Other days it is easier. I know I feel a bit better. 50% of this is genetics 50% is learned and can be changed. I am not saying my life is perfect or that I am happy, but I can tell you that instead of waking up depressed almost everyday, I know only wake up depressed a few times a month. Anyway, don't kill yourself. Get some help and get some relief from the pain caused by living like this. I am with you and I want you to get well.
deleted_user
i feel the way you do more often than not. please hang on! i care about you, very much. XXOO
deleted_user
Im so glad you are still here heretic, really, I do love your sad ways and often remind myself of how I feel the same way at times.... sometimes I know we wonder why god still has us here, that we just exist because he wants us too, for whatever reason I feel I was not put here on this earth to have anykind of fantastic, money rich life. it just gods plan for me I accept it now. I think i was put here for my kittys, and other ppl and things that just need my personal care. Hugz honey, you sound like you are grieving very deeply about something, wish I could help in some way.
deleted_user
Please get yourself to a hospital. When you get help you are going to feel so much better. Also, talking to a therapist is going to help too. But, take that first step, and get some help. We care abut you on this site. May God bless you.You are not alone. Let me know how you are doing...Hugs! Angel Grace
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