All of your words sounded like mine for so long..only people do look at me oddly because of my weight. I struggled with abuse in my past, losses too great to bear sometimes, depression and anxiety, and while i thankfully have found healthier ways to work through them i know that i will never be able to forget them or leave them completely behind. The thing is, people really arent looking at us in the ways we often thing they are..i mean some look at us but really through us.. They instead see our pain and suffering, and sometimes they can even sense the energies we carry of which fear and depression are the biggest. We look at ourselves poorly and with doubt, we see all of the flaws and issues that we think everyone else sees..even when they are not there...but the actual truth is, that you are a strong and wonderful and blessed woman who has so many options and different forms of help to help you get through everything that bothers, hurt, confuses, and cheats you out of the happy and healthy and wholesome life you deserve
Grab onto the hands that reach out to you and hold them tight, nd when you feel nobody cares nobody sees you, that you dont matter or have a purpose in this big beautiful world, let their strength and light and love help you through those dark moments and stand beside you til you get to that happier and brighter place just a little ways beyond where you can see right now.
I'm here to listen and help you in any way i can, as each and everyone of us was put onto this earth to find our purposes and cross paths with the people we do for so many different reasons! Blessed be my dear, may you find your happiness and light soon and may you find the strength you need to see the beautiful and wonderful woman you are :) Blessed be!!

I'm just searching and searching everyday for way out of this life there are so many drugs where I work in constantly looking at their pills wondering if it be enough to do it. Or wishing could just find away that would look accidental. I hurt so much all the tine feel alone in the way out of place ..........

I'm sorry that things are so difficult right now. Does anyone in your life know how you're feeling? ((hugs))

Not really they now I have depression but they don't now how much it hurts all the time. When itry talking even too a counsellor feel like no one gets it.

if I didn't already add you, please add me..your looking for signs and answers. But sometimes it's right infront of us and we just need help seeing it. The is hope and help and strength you just need to grab them. I'd like to iviye you to the group I created!

Do you feel like you explain how serious it is to your therapist and she just doesn't get it? Or is it hard for you to express to her how bad things are feeling right now? My suggestion would be if she doesn't take it seriously, and you don't feel like you're connecting well with her I'd say get a new therapist. I had to go through a few before I found one I really connected with. If it's hard for you to express how bad things are, maybe try writing it out, that's something that worked for me too. I know everyone's different though, but I really hope you can find support in your life, it's really lonely to feel like no one understands.

Yes I did accept your friendship request and thanks for they advice I might look into a new one I basically stopped going to her anyways

I'm not a fan of traditional medicine and therapists, but as part of my job we have to accept and know that there is a place for both. The biggest trouble people have is that they lose hope and give up when they dont find a therapist helpful or medications that work and get discouraged. In my therapies and practices we work on the little things getting them out of the way o that we can really figure out and address on the bigger issues. Its all connected my dear, and very overwhelming to take on alone! But your not alone, you have the friends here and options and support you need you just have to be willing to use them and hold onto them. Support here is great but getting answers and finding new ways to deal with and cope is even better. :)

Is a normal family doctor just as good as a psychiatrist for writing prescription I a m currently taking three different antidepressants one a mood stabilizer but is it really helping if I feel depressed mostly everyday some days worse then others? I've been on theses for a year now. My psychiatrist prescribed them but I don't wish to go back to her either. I like my family doctor

Talk to your family doctor about how youve been feeling as well as how you feel about this last therapist..maybe he/she can help you find another therapist to go too! :) Medical professionals have the ability to write you prescriptions that treat and control our feelings and thoughts..so the answer to your question is yes of course! However, having said that its also a personal preference as mine can write them but wont..he instead offers referrals :) Either way make an appointment and discuss your thoughts and feelings, he/she knows you the best and can help you in that sense :)

Thank you for all your kind words and advise

Hang in there. I felt suicidal last week. I held on, and I woke up this morning and out of the blue, I felt relaxed and ok. I know the feelings willl come back, but I am going to enjoy this good time. You can do it, wake up tomorrow, early, have a cup of coffee, sit and watch a show, just have a day for you

Feel so tired all the home and fed up at myself I want to quit

Quitters quit and that is something you are not. Take a hot shower, wear comfy clothing, and go outside for some fresh air.This is when you need to grab a hold of those who want to help you and be there for you and listen to them and let them help you get through this. Each and every one of us special and wonderful and gifted in our own ways, but we are all put on this earth for a reason. You can sit and feel horrible and be miserably or you can get up and get moving and begin working on changing the things you have to work on so that you can be happy and healthy and whole.

I've gone to group therapy, councillors, psychiatrists 2 of them
Was an inpatient and tried many meds I've been working on it for years but lately I just feel worn out it always returns the black cloud always