It's been so long since I've been here. Life does like to set me up, it became a vice coming here... Writing "diaries" wasn't exactly helping and being on suicide watch limits your acess to writing material... DEFCON is high around me I guess...I had sex with a neighbour who was overly nice to me, ended up hurting her... I don't feel guilty, she was warned in advance I was not right. Fuck her. Guess I'm back here because I'm under house arrest, last month I tried to blow myself up in my car. Police arrested me and it was a looooooong process of adressing my issues... I think they're more afraid I might murder someone than kill myself. So here I am again... The counselor is behind me and his breath smells of liquor, he wants to see me writing this... You can go fuck yourself Alan.