Depression Support Group

Depression is a real and debilitating condition that is often misunderstood by family and friends. Its meaning can range from a prolonged period of sadness to an actual mental illness with specific symptoms. Find and share experiences with others who are going through the same struggles.

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DepressedRecluse 12/18/2013

what I know I have to do? ....WHY?

Day in and day out, I sit here and think about everything I have to do...and

...and that's it...I try to go do it...but I just can't do it...WHY?

Why is it so hard to do what I know I have to do?

I really don't understand this...and I know everything!...yet I can't do the simplest things that I have to do!...WHY?

WHY?...why is it so hard for me to go to my mom's house, pick up her bank statements and fax them to her attorney? WHY CANT I do that?

Why? ...why can't I just go to my mom's house and pay her bills? I know I have to do it...so why can't I just do it?

Why? ...why can't I clean my kitchen and wash the dishes?

Why? ...why can't I separate the clothes and go do laundry?

Why? ...why am I riding around with two flat tires in the back of my truck instead of just going and getting them replaced?

WHY? ...why can't I just wake up...take my meds...and go live my life ONE FUCKING DAY AT A TIME...WHY? ...why is it so hard to do such simple things?

WHY?!?!?!?!?!?!?

worldofblah4 12/18/2013

I try not to get too down by asking myself the WHY questions.
I try to focus on my strengths and what I CAN do. What are your strengths?

DepressedRecluse 12/18/2013

actually...

.... I don't have any anymore...

I've lost everything...including the ability to be happy and enjoy anything...GOD...I miss my life...I really do...

scg15223 12/18/2013

I get it. When depression hits it's like carrying a thousand pound weight on your back walking through knee deep mud. First try and be kind to yourself as we are limited during the worst of this illness. Second pick something like washing the dishes and just kick yourself in the butt to do it! I know it's hard. I know it sucks. But damn it we are going to do it! Then relax and pat yourself on the back. Baby steps my friend...baby steps :)

deleted_user 12/18/2013

An even better questions is "why don't I get it treated?"

MrZtwo 12/18/2013

Wow, you just described my depression. Sorry I can't help much, but when you start doing again let me know how you did it. I've been there myself, somehow I survived and got back into life, but I don't know how I did it. Does that make sense?

Heidiclark 12/18/2013

I deal with the same issues every day that you are describing. My kitchen is a disaster----and it's a nice kitchen too! Or at least it would be if I would take care of it. I tend to stare at the work that needs to be done and then that's the end of it. It doesn't get done and then the next day comes around and it doesn't get done then either. Yes it is very frustrating. The one good thing that I am able to now do, though, is that I am able to work nine hours/week washing dishes at a health food store. Still can't wash my own dishes but I can do it for money. I guess it's a start.

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